I'm pooped

and do not feel like attending yoga this evening. Must I? I'm dragging ass. I ran 13 miles yesterday and well tried to ride my bicycle some today around the lake. Saw Dave from the running group and we chatted a bit.

I felt fine that. But was getting hungry and tried of fighting the wind. So thought I would get a head start of the traffic and headed back home. I was fine until I ate something.. been pooped since four.

I certainly do not feel like going to yoga. Of course, I never feel like going. It's a pain. Yet, I struggle through every week. I need to lose weight and get some energy. I need to knock off about ten pounds around my gut.

As soon as I eat something my gut blows up. I only had a handful of trail mix and about a cup and half of pasta with mushrooms and vegetables I made the other evening.

And that needs to be it for the evening. I have to stop eating. Other then what I just ate, I had half cook of oatmeal (with one cup of water) and two four ounce cups of coffee.

I'm tired and can't fat. Can't be tired and can't eat. Nice!

I can't believe it!

I just can't believe how Hillary gets put down and every one on Tim Russert's two shows hold up for Obama. He let's her go first on the tough questions and Dee Dee Meyer says Obama is being a gentlemen. He's stupid! He doesn't know the answer - but no one wants to see it!

Obama waits for her to answer - so as to provide him (Obama) with an answers!

Thanking the Universe

I thank the universe for all of my many blessings of youthfulness, good health, energy and gratefulness.

I should be reading "The New Earth"

by Eckhart Tolle for the Oprah on line class beginning Monday, March 3rd for ten weeks at her wed site.

But, I feel like writing. About what? Don't know. But I requested a magical day today and I got one. I love this stuff - "The Secret". You know, requesting magical moments and getting them. The universe is with me. We are very powerful if only we know it. I know it. This is the best time of my life. I'm loving it!

Isn't it funny how women read these spiritual self help books and men don't. But, it seems to me that men are the ones who really need to read them. The bad news on TV is usually about men. Men committing crimes.

Why? You think because more men are in the public light. And gee, I wonder why that is? They put themselves there; they want to be in the limelight! They want to boss, lead and get all the credit! They do not women telling them what to do. Well, there goes Hillary I guess!

Okay this is supposed to be spiritual. My magical moment today. My art! I had fun at the Artist Guild and fellow artist were wowed by my Iphone. It was funny. I had an audience of about eight people checking out this fabulous - how could I live without it - phone!

If you want to be in touch with the internet no matter where you go; have GPS and mapping, camera and phone - it's the thing to get!

So, I was thrilled. I love being entertaining! Well, to an extent. I settled now then and sat and drew with the rest of them. We had a nude male model today. He was good. He sat very still. During the one minute poses, he didn't even blink! I could never do that! I think my drawing were pretty good. The last one the best! The second to the last one arm (he held them above his head) is bigger than the other. I love drawing portraits I could do it all day long.

Universe, I need your help!

This could turn interesting.  So iI need the help of the universe. I thank the universe for all of my blessings.  please keep us safe and out of trouble.  And help me find someone more suitable to me Thank youuyour so much She is on  her way now I know Thank you all the spirits of the universe and beyond.  Thanks

I am thankful

for all of my many blessings of hope, love, peace, gentleness, caring, good health, humor, common sense, agility, toughness, confidence, brilliance, artist ability, yoga, flexibility, enough money to get by, wisdom, courage, fortitude, honor, integrity, trustworthiness, and good nature.

Okay, that's enough. I'm grateful for all my things staying together and in good condition, body, mind, spirit, home applicances, and auto.

I thank the universe for all of my many loves in my life and beyond.

Gee, I haven't thought about the beyond for a couple of days. I hope Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette are doing well. I trust they'll make our (my and M's) time together very fun and fine.

I know one thing and that is that I'm very tired of winter and so ready for Spring. It was very cold sleeting and snowing today. Yesterday I framed drawings, today I made soup and watched it get out outdoors. And stayed in front of the fire.

I'm grateful. I just wanted to say that. I'm open to the universe to creative adventures and love. Sweet love - one can never get enough.

Artistic Magic!

Last evening watching Oprah's "The Secret and Beyond" my spirituality was renewed. Sometimes we forget to reflect, be grateful, project, dream, wish, and plan. But, I did last night
during meditation session at yoga.

I opened my heart, spirit and mind up to the spiritual side and energy of the universe. Our energies are all connected and our thoughts make things happen rather we are conscious of it or now. So, I've forgotten the hurt and harm of the past, my troubling youth and anger of the miss justice in the world, the off balance and pull and push of our patriarchal, authoritarian, troubling religious consciousness that is so wrong, controlling, manipulating and self-serving. I find comfort in the fact that people are finally catching on to the fictitious hypocrisy of it all.

I'm done with that. From here on out, life is beautiful, mystical, creative and magical. Positive energy flows through out my world. Only positive, feminine energy. I opened my heart and magic stepped in.

My heart has been light since. Today during our art session I received a high compliment from a fellow, respected, artist. I was insecure about my talents and I find that I'm blossoming. I think the universe. I know and realize that I have friends in high places. Her name is Edy. She's an artist. I didn't know her. But my lover did. Edy passed in 03 and her lesbian lover, Georgette, the year before in 02. My lover had slightly come between them at one time when she had a slight afraid with Edy. So, in walks me. Innocent! But I had offered my spirit to the spirit world to help anyone there are here.

Isn't it wonderfully amazing how we can help THEM too! So, I think as far back perhaps as 1992 when my partner at the time took me to see (well not see), speak to Ezekiel, a channeled spirit. He nailed me as he does everyone. I miss him. It's been a while I feel I need to visit him just to see how he is doing. He comes across to me as a wise old spirit; kind and sure footed. He's usually right on.

Ezekiel told me at our last visit that I would sell my art. And once I sold, I would keep selling! Of course I was excited when I heard this. I'm filled with hope. I love singing and playing my guitar too. And I love to swing dance. I realize that I am very fortunate to have such gifts in my heart. Do you know how many people do not have rhythm? Many? I'm actually, a rarity. So, I don't want to waste this gift, none of my gifts. I'm sixty. I should have started all of this years ago.

But you know age is irrelevant. Really, sixty is nothing anymore. sixty is younger than forty. My health age according to Dr. Oz's test is age 48. I really feel younger than that actually. I'm excited about life. To think I spent the first forty years in agony is troublesome to time. Amazing. But time starts now. I'm excited about my art and the possibilities.

Anyway, I would find myself saying to my lover when she spoke of Edy. "You know I think Edy watches over you". See I knew in my heart I was sent to take care of her...my lover. I was so secure and sure footed throughout the journey leading up to us getting together. I love this magical stuff. I truly love it because I feel so light hearted, brilliant, secure, beautiful, young, strong, like I can do anything. And during truly magical times.. the weather is very beautiful and magical too.

So when my lover spoke of how spiritual Edy was I found myself saying. "I bet she would really like to speak with you. " Well, after several times of bringing it up and she saying she would go. I made the appointment.

You should hear the tape. Very cool! Here how it goes. First of all Ezekiel nails my lover, M. He nails everyone. Although Ezekiel is channeled by a woman, her voice changes and I just feel that the Ezekiel spirit is more masculine than feminine. Although I truly believe that in the spirit world there is no sex, gender, race, or time. Per Ezekiel, many months can flash in the blink of an eye in the spirit world.

During the conversation Ezekiel asked M if there is anyone should would like to speak to. She says. "Edy". And Ezekiel says "Well, she paces patiently behind you." So then she and M chit chat. And then M asked "Edy, are you there with Georgette?" Edy replies. "No, and I miss her". Would you like to see her? And then Ezekiel asks M what Georgette's last name is?
And low and behold he says her name and then says. "Oh, she comes quickly." And then "They embrace, they weld together."

The tape is wonderful! See I believe I did a good thing. I got M there to speak to Ezekiel so she could help reunite Edy and Georgette. Just maybe Georgette hadn't gotten over the affair Edy and M had at one time. But all is well now and I'm so glad to have been a part of getting them all together.

Maybe Edy came to me and incorporated my artist talents. I always liked to draw as a kid and sing and I took accordion lessons. You know one time I heard as I was watching the six DVD set of the "What The Bleep Do we Know?" sequel "How Far Down the Rabbit Hole Do You Want to Go?" That past, present, and future all happens at the same time. How amazing is that? And it makes sense regarding this in terms of our consciousness. Can we actually change the past? Yes, I truly believe we can. Well, our interpretation of it, can be changed on an on going basis.

I love this stuff. So no wonder my day was magical. I planned it that way. And I have this wonderful help and influence on the other side. So, I never feel lonely. No I've never met Edy I was pictures of her and M this she has taken greatly influenced my earthly being. I love this stuff. I talk to them all the time. Sometimes I accuse them of playing tricks on me. And I don't get upset.

For example. When I got home from the art session I looked for the two drawings of a model/artist whom I drew two weeks ago. She had approached me today asking to see them. See said J told her they were very good. Wow! My best dream come true yet! Well, I told her that I didn't have them with me but that I would frame them and have them at J's gallery. She so graciously, wonderfully, invited me to show my art! What an honor! I'm nervous.

You know I think I'm giving up this "nervous" emotion because it's only negative, unproductive, needless, pointless, unnecessary energy that could be spent and creating art!

See this magical, getting what you wish for works...just read yesterday's post.

May the spirit be with you!