I love and need my freedom!

You know I love my relationship...but still need my freedom and I'm getting it. It's a balance. A careful balance. I am good alone. Actually, I'm probably better alone. But, I'm be okay in a relationship too. I'll stick to my boundaries.

I am grateful to the universe for all of my youthfulness, flexibility, pain free activities. I am grateful. I know that I will remain pain free and energized daily! And safe and healthy just like my friends will be too!

The univese well provide for us what we want if we want it. We only be grateful and to ask (but be very specfic) and then put it out there and let it go and keep your thoughts in the present moment and answers will come to you.

I need my alone time during the week some. I just need it. I ask the universe to help me keep my freedom while allowing someone to be in my life. I lose myself, but I think I am getting better. I just need the universe's help to keep my focused and to keep me myself. I love my hobbies and time alone - although not always. I'm tired of these headaches, headaches and acdity gut aches. I fear all tension - all trespasses and whatever.

I'm tired now. I need to sleep.. badly

A Magical Tuck and Roll

Well, I have learned things along the way in my life when I was very young that have come in handy all through my 60 years. One of those things was becoming a hair dresser while still in high school. I can honestly say I have probably saved thousands of dollars coloring and cutting my own hair. And it's in good condition!

Another thing I learned at a very young age was judo. Well, just beginning judo but I remember a few moves to move someone off balance. However, the important thing is that during those lessons the instructor threw me down enough times that I learned how to fall so that I do not get hurt. Falling with tuck and roll comes so natural to me now. It's automatic to tuck and roll never trying to stop or brace myself against the fall and just allowing it to happen while relaxing into it. Of course I am very flexible because I do yoga for years now.

Well, sometimes when I run it's common to maybe get distracted then trip over uneven sidewalk or pavement..normally I'll get bruised and skinned up. But, today the most mystical, magical thing happened I fell totally down on the ground and was not hurt at all as far as the eye could see.

I tripped on uneven pavement on the street near my home just starting out my run. I felt myself go down and let it happen leading with my right shoulder. I tucked and rolled landing on my back quarter of my right shoulder. I felt my feet fly up behind me and my right hip side cheek land on the pavement soundly. It hurt slightly for a second. The underside of my right forearm landed on the pavement too. Maybe my left knee hit slightly. I know my upper right arm made flat contact with the pavement..not the elbow point the flat part of the upper arm. Tuck and roll is trying to land on fatty parts..not bones: knees or elbows.

I flew back up as quickly as I went down and picked up my cap that flew off and continued my run. The slight pain, more of an abrasive tingle on my right thigh and upper right arm faded fast as I ran and forgot about it.

I had quickly examined those area and the amazing thing was that I saw literally not abrasions or scratches or beginning of bruising and I was totally down on the ground. My shoulder protected and kept my head from hitting the pavement.. that the purpose of tuck and roll.

So my running guides were watching out for me today. It was most magical. I just checked again.. I feel the area on my lower right arm too near my wrist but I have no bruising and this happened this morning before nine and It's eight in the evening now.

Here's what I slightly feel without abrasions or bruising..my right side of my right leg calf, My right hip cheek, and that's about it.

I was running not walking so I was moving along about at least a ten minute pace while first starting out. I guess I was graceful and smooth I wish someone could have video recorded it.

So after I fall, I ran for forty-five minutes without problems and I did some speed training too.. pushing the envelope a bit.

Could it have had something to do with writing in my journal this morning thanking the universe for my safety pain free, illness free life and days. I thanked the universe for all that I have. I am youthful chronically 60 but physically 35 or 40. I do yoga smoothly and surely and attend classes every week and do poses every morning with push-ups and sit-up.

I came in 2nd place in my age group last Saturday in a United Way 5k run..with the lst place runner cruising behind me the hold time until the last quarter mile then passed me in a surge. I should have charged after her. I regret not pushing harder but I learned to train now for speed. Sometimes I believe that I hold myself back. It's why I worked harder on my run this morning to improve my pace.

I am entered to do a half marathon in the Fall so I need to get training for that event. I can't wait for it to get here. I truly enjoyed the 5k I just did. Of course winning a trophy helps spice up things.

Well I wanted to become more physic and I believe that I have! Or I need to be more careful of what I think about. Example: one day I thought probably the nieghbor would get a little dog for me to hear yap and low and behold she did!

Sometimes right before my girlfriend say something I have just thought about that very thng! And I say: "I was just thinking about that very thing!"

So I asked for it and I am getting it! Which is okay. I want to be a well rounded much improved, more enlightened, spiritual, psychic person! Why not spiritual intellects claim we only used just a little bit of our brain power and we have so much more. We have barely tapped the surface. The idea now is to stay in the present and allow knowledge to flow forth.

I want to experience some physic ability. I already have most people figured out and most people with in a "me" material world. Lost people see only themselves and their wants and needs. Most people are rude and can't wait and push or act like they don't see you. Most people do not make themselves look very attractive. Most people don't think for themselves but are mere followers and lambs and puppets.

Most people who are trained and conditioned not to think for themselves are registered Republicans who are pro-life but war mongers. They are faithful NRA members and prefer to own guns for protection or whatever.

I believe that I am psychic and predict McCain's campaign mamagers will see that be wins one way or the other with whatever it takes. You knows big lobbyist ran corporations bolt those voting machine. Oh and I ask all they really have to do is fox the gallop poll to put McCain a head and there you are!

most grateful... as always

for my many blessings and her, she is wonderful! I am grateful for my agility, flexibility, humor, loving heart, great health, safety, great car, great condo and thanks for keeping them maintenace free.

I am grateful for my special spiritual guides. I have the best! Some of which are Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Gorgette.

I love meeting new people and learning about people. I love living in the city and I am most grateful for my mid-life crisis that got me here amongst all my friends.

I am grateful for packing up and leaving my family far away across the river in a another state. The goal is never to see or hear from them. Of course they make that easy. I am so grateful for my freedom of mind, guilt and heart!

I am finally living my childhood and I love it. I get to play, explore, invent, create. And all guilt free. I never had a fun, playing childhood - or one with neighborhood friends. So, it took me a while to get to this point. But, I'm loving it. I had a cold, weird, distance so-called family. My friends are my family... my only family. Truly it's not blood that makes up family.

I am so grateful for my freedom and chance to be me and explore my activeness and creativeness. I so thank the universe for watching over me, guiding me, loving me and taking me forward with dreams and wishes and wonderful loves in my life. Thank you.

Never to look back - only forward!

I believe that a spiritual saxophone player has invaded my spirit and is planning my days. He is possessing my mind and talents. For although I desire to sing and play guitar I feel pushed to play my sax more. I have this undeniable urge to take it with me no matter where I go. But I deny that urge and bury it.

well on this Labor Day I will type with two thumbs from my iPhone as it helps me and gusses what I try to type! Let me start off by saying I do not believe in reflection or looking back into the past! I believe the path is a foundation in which to build a brighter more enlighted future. Never look back only be grateful that I am not still stuck there wallowing in unhappiness. I love my ex and I love my lover and I love aloof my many friends most of which I got to see this weekend.

My friends are my spirit guides in desguise here to aid me on my journey and me on their's. What a blessed life. I can't wait until my next life either. I will be another beautiful feminine lesbian with long blond hair and very cute, beautil in fact. I will be extemely intelligent, musically talented with grace and wonderful rythrm. I will probably be a doctor with a Ph. I will be goreouslu happy and brillant never forgetting anything after I had heard or seen it just one time!

I will be very physical and active loving to run and bicycle. I will have wonderful common sense like j do now. And like I do now I will realize that the power lies within myself. I know that I create my own realities and I love it. This past weekend was magical, loving and wonderful. She and I are naturally happy and wonderfull together.

I am 30 both inside and out physically and spiritually. Life is grand! She is wonderful and doesn't hang around her family a lot and I love that about her. We had a wonderful time together and my ex and I are still connected by our hearts. It was wonderful to see her recently. I pray the universe protect her and keep her active, well and happy and loved - me too!

I wish to become quicker in my running pace. I have a half marathon coming up in the near future and life is grand. I pray if my ex gets a scooter that she is careful on it. Watching out for those medicated, crazed, dazed motorist!

I believe the universe, my spirit guides lead me on my journey to calmess filled with energy for physical activity and learning and most of all memory. I realiE too that I am very comfortable with my new love in my life! It's wonderful having someone so near and dear, available and easy to be with. I think she needs to worry less about taking care of others and more about taking car of hersef and yes, selfishly but isn't everyone - taking care of us - she and I.

We have only just begun and we need da h other. It seems so many others have such a head start on us. She will worry less about others and more about us . We need us. Does she worry out of guilt? Those that she worries about certainly to not worry about her! And there you are! People should learn to fend for themselves and not worry about others.