It's spiritual

Now I'm not tired..I was tired all day. It's been a very busy four days or more. I'm going to miss her tonight.. I've spent the last four nights with her. Being with her feels so natural. I'll miss her tonight..I'm hoping she feels the same way about me.

Mystical, magical and spiritual! Christmas eve day, the 24th, went with two friends to visit Ezekiel my special spirit guide.

Ezekiel tells me to get into my art that I need to display it and when I do I'll make lots of money doing it. I need to get my butt in gear. I asked him what media he sees me doing my best and that is where I will concentrate. I for one, cannot decide, maybe photography? He agrees. I listed photography with several other artist choices. I think he liked photography the best.

Oh any excuse for me to buy that MacBook! Maybe a new camera too! Yeah right.. no one won't!

Life is grand! I love photography... to capture split seconds in time and frame.

I'm tired and fighting it. Maybe I don't want to sleep without her next to me.

Just proves that maybe we do create

our own realties! Well Ezekiel rather narrows down to a fine point what I have been thinking anyway. So I think he reads the aura around me, past, present and future. And it's my thoughts that have produced that aura.

I guess through me he sees how my special someone is and how it effects me. Lately my special someone is about as cool and casual as any acquaintance or distance friend that I know. I hope things change - soon. And yet she wants to go with me to different events and sleep with me. She never tells me she loves me or that she misses me..she did at first. I'm getting tired of feeling that I am being put through a test..an on-going test. So from here on out..I'll just play the game too.
I guess it's her way of controlling, whipping me into shape I guess.

I like her and it's nice to have someone accompany me to different functions. But, without the affection intimacy is suffering on my part. She on the other hand can be cool and still get her jollies. I have no idea just how that works.

Damn, if I would have had time today I would have asked Ezekiel about that..like why does it matter to me..why am I so sensitive.

Ezekiel, by the way, is a channeled spirit who speaks through a woman. The woman is quite someone.. a real character..but that is beside the point. I feel sorry for her in her own misery..constant and getting worse everytime I see her interestingly enough.

So Ezekiel tells me my art will bring me money..he told me that last year when I was there. Guess I'll concentrate more on it then. I told him I can't decide which median and when I mentioned photography he went on and on about the captured split second. I am so tired now I could take a nap. Maybe I'll drink some coffee.. lots to do this evening.. like being entertaining.

Mystical, Magical, may need to shred

one pair of socks. While I'm waiting for my date.. to get here.. we are going to a lesbian union..my first to attend. Oddly enough I find this will be the third for my straight friend who will be accompanied by her gay friend..seems her boyfriend was busy..

Okay, here goes the extra pair of socks off my feet and into a sandwich bag into my small handbag.It's a psychological security thing. I look hot by the way! I've got my lipstick on and a nice glow to my cheeks. No eye makeup.. or actual makeup..it gets dull and settles into facial lines.. I just have Shark Liver oil topical blend made to apply to your face. It's not cheap either.. but "natural" and I think diminishes lines rather them like make-up which enhances facial lines.

How let you know how the evening goes..

Clean off my car too.. will you..

I'm watching the woman across the street clear the snow from her car...well after she worked the doors a bit to even get in. Her wipers were frozen and she is making sure she clean them good too before backing out and heading out. Is she ever tall..or her car is short. Well, I'm so used to short men standing near tall SUV's and pick-ups. You know the American way! Apparently, huge builds not only tall vehicles but abundant esteems..probably why they rush to tailgate and dominate.

It's so American, we in American like to dominate and over take...other countries. We take what we want. The woman across the street has backed out and came back twice. Surely, she sees her windshield wipers are sticking straight up in the air still?

I'll need to get out for sure tomorrow if not today to go to the gym today I'm working on a sculpturing projects..perhaps two, if this turns out okay. I'm merely warming up my fingers typing, because I begin to file and chicle and carve.

And how about that Berny Mayo or whatever his name is? What a crook? He falsified monthly investment statements to project a safe steady gain. Older people in Florida have lost everything and so many more. They trusted this guy! I say into the clinker with him for a long time! Just like those Enron clowns the younger, lower levels take the heat while Ken Lay is probably basing on a tropical beach somewhere and operating out of a huge Swiss bank account. You really think he had a heart attack and died right before his trail? Come on? He was too buddy buddy with Bush and company!

Yeah and Bush just bought a two million dollar house in Texas with his lobbyist kickbacks. Wonder what Cheney is going to do with all his money? And Rove. Oh, I know what Rove will be doing - grooming Jeb for 2012. Amazing? What do you think? Jeb or Carolyn in 2012? How about Chelsea?

So where do you think we'll be in 2012? All green with cheaper living, better jobs and I'll be able to take a vacation or buy a new car just because. Or how about redecorating and replacing this 1985 decor? You know - give us a decent market and we'll have some cash to buy some of YOUR products. I guess the extreme greedy CEO personnel didn't get that memo.. but rather stuck all the proceeds into there own pockets rather than pay the stock holders or their employees and what's worse.. Bush was behind it all. Big shot leaders should not get anymore than a small percent of the proceeds of the company.. not as much as they WANT! That's embezzling company funds? And they were all on each other's boards so of course they voted the increase in salaries in..for each other. People! They took the money and ran and the hell with the stock holders.. so why aren't there asses in jail?

So now they are going to impeach the governor of Illinois because they wanted to sell Obama's old Senate seat.. but in Washington we have all those in the white house and on capital hill taking funds from lobbyist..so what's the difference I ask? Buying promises, votes and buying favors.. is just that! It's the same thing! Isn't it?

I just looked at the radar and we are going to get blasted.. the wind is coming from the North and it's showing solid white across the radar screen...maybe I'll call my friend in the hospital and visit her tomorrow. I'll see what my neighbor friend is going to do.. I'd call her but I know she is not up and about yet...I think we have a window now. We should go earlier.. before it all starts. I'll call her soon....

Time to clean off my car.. just had a great breakfast of low-carb pancakes and great cup of Starbucks..at home..blueberries int he pancakes.. good stuff! It's 16 degrees out! Ugh! This bad weather is coming too soon....I certainly hope the holiday weather is good....and my girlfriend lives off of a drop off no shoulder scary road....hope she makes it okay. And of course she has American car problems in this cold weather.. amazing! And it always makes strange sounds? Why is that?

Ezekiel... we are coming to talk to you...

I am eagerly anticipating Christmas Eve...no not for gifts or partying but for visiting with my extra special spirit guide, Ezekiel! Yes via a channel.

Well, my two friends had mentioned going to speak to him several times now in the past few months.. but you know me sometimes it takes me several times to "get the message" I guess!

I made the appointments this morning.. now I need to buy a tape player.. so I can listen to the tape after visiting with Ezekiel.

Wonder what I'll learn this time? Maybe I'll buy the tape player tomorrow so I can listen to the tapes I have.. all six at least.

I feel restless like something is about to happen.. like an awakening.. perhaps the dawn of a new clairvoyance. An awareness brought forward...a brilliance shared. I'm trying.

Get a load of this.. I was listening to The View this morning with Elisabeth and Joy arguing over the "god" theory.. well, evolution verses the big bang. God did this and god did that.. and god created this and that etc., well you get the idea per Elisabeth.. she's as Christian as Christ himself! :( I agree more with Joy..the bang theory.. science all the way.. no not actually.. well, here's my theory!

My theory is quantum physics... we are all connected.. We have the power. We are ALL gods! The sad truth is.. that no one realizes that and because we are not aware of our intelligence and power we haven't even begun to tap into our extraordinary brilliance and energies to even begin to realize our capacities. We choose and create our destinies before we are even born..in a "contract" if you will? Life is indeed an unknown adventure.. because we forget the contract.. our job is to rediscover our journey's contract.

I feel I need to do something profound..well at least profound to me. I wish to be magical and excited about life and the powers I have and to recognize and use those powers. Our thoughts are very powerful so be careful of what you spend your day thinking about. We are too as young as we wish.. as young as we feel so goes the saying. "It's all in your head" rings true!

I wish to read the minds of those close to me.. feel their passions, their thoughts and energy. Think ahead! My vocabulary soars.. my pronunciations march out bright and clear; distinct and alert. My mind is quite and correct. Total recall! Quick reflexes! Brave and brilliant, clever and wise! I wish to have a special connection with animals and man..mostly women!

We have the intelligence to use our time here on earth - well! So why are we so barbaric still? Why all this war? This is the 21st century after all we can put a man on the moon.. or was that all fiction? Wag the dog, perhaps?

I know how and what my love thinks at times. I miss her... looks like I won't get to see her until the weekend. She is what I wanted.. I got what I wanted.

You see I know people in high places.. I helped them.. yes, there on the other side.. I helped them.. I helped get them together.. I have the tape. I talk to them all the time.. well I pray to them more or else. I offered to help them in the past and will do so again. In doing so they knew I prefer, magical, fun, healthy, youthful, happy, beautiful, exciting, loving.. ways to help them. I could tell you more.. but I won't right now..

Yet, the world is so magical.. I love it! Life is beautiful.. if only we realized our powers. We so live in the past.. we are so primitive!

But, I have hope for the future.. after 1/20/09.. being "green" will kick off and oil will trickle!

Right now science is making fuel from run away reproduction algae. One guy is using a vine type plant that grows in abundance around poles, fences and trees in the South.

I only wonder... will the big shot oil, auto and tire.. crush them out.. all the "green" engineers.. will they be crushed out?

We need a world without oil and without engineered corn, soy and wheat crops produced by big industry.. we need to clear Washington of lobbyist and money grabbers. They have ran their course.. it's time for new thoughts.. green thoughts.. wind, solar, and water power...friction?

What a concept wheels turning that create electrical power..talk about on the fly re-charging.. re-creating electrical power. Now in a Toyota Prius the brakes being used creates electrical power and charges the battery - a hybrid..

But totally electric, cheap enough, brilliant! Life is grand!

Ezekiel

Which I could get deeper into the spiritual world..and become more inept, perhaps more clairvoyant realizing thought and emotions by observations, gestures, speech style and tones. What's really going on?

I feel I'm on the edge, on the verge of deeper discovery.. I understand, I think, that spirits passed over can also be back here on earth living another life. In more places than one? Why not! It's spiritual.. a thought process! But they can still be "there" on the other side for us.

Ezekiel, my special spirit knows past, present and future. I believe in the spirit world it all happens at the same time: past, present, and future. And why now!

Humans, Christians and government, pretty much work the same way using shock and awe to manipulate and control human beings for their own service. Oh they keep us power for a reason.. control. Look at Hitler.. he starved people to get their attention.. he used all money that was every available.. for his war machine.

Governments are ran by greedy powerful business people wanting to become more powerful.

No one in power is spiritual or giving or godlike. That is not part of the game. One needs to be ruthless and greedy to be powerful.. and controlling..and evil!

Power means overtaking what you want for your own needs and greed! Don't ever think the government actually cares and is looking out for our best interest. Homeland security - not! Shock and awe for control and manipulation - yes!

Gee, I wonder what they are up to now.. Boston Legal's Shirley.. swears the Chinese will buy us out.. will they pretty much have.. we are in trillions of dollars in debt to them..they can take what they want I guess. Like Shirley said during the show.. you can't argue with your banker! Certainly can't get them mad! Just what were our guys in industry and Washington thinking about? Borrowing money from one country to make another country rich as we buy their oil. Are did we actually think we would get some kind of control in the middle east.. putting a foot print there in the way of "democratizing" Iraq? Just what are we up too.

Want a good read? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein.. and "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer

Oh, and too, watch the DVD "Who Killed the Electric Car?"

A Warm Spiritual Rain is

falling tonight and leads into a warm, cloudy, sleepy day in which I will try to get my butt out there to rain in between showers and possible thunder showers.

It's off to the gym to swim, work-out, cycle, and treadmill jog.. hopefully. I'd rather run out doors.. maybe I'll get it in.

In the interim, I wish to thank the universe for all of my many riches, treasures, loves, warmth, good cheer! Jolly Holidays!

May my love invite me.. I'll eagerly go.. where ever she goes. I love her. I do declare I believe I am in love!

So warm, soft, firm, wonderful! I thank the universe. I wish tomorrow a magical day just like today.. but I must exercise sometime. I love my freedom. I wished however, for her to move closer in.. to me!

I can't believe I didn't spend any money today..for a change. Thank you universe. Thank you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette for protecting me, my car, my home, my appliances and watching out over me. I do appreciate and need your help! Please remain close by. Thanks!

Life is grand and I love this new Google front end to all of my bookmarks... it's really cool and has an auto spell check too. Life is good!

Yes, life is indeed mystical, magical and spiritual.. thank you so much for all of my many wonderful blessings.

all that said.. I am grateful for all of my many

blessings! I have great health, happiness, well power, I've learned to eat healthy and love it! I'm off sugar.. which is an inflammatory agent...not good! I had gotten carried away with energy drinks and gels. Again, not good!

I feel much better now and thank the universe for my boundless energy and clear minded thinking. Thanks for keeping me safe and protecting me and sending me great friends. Thanks!

Life is good and I am very grateful to have wonderful people in my life! I thank the univese and especially my spirit guides whom I know what out and over me.. Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Georgette. My magical!

Thank you for a great nights sleep too - in advance! Thanks for my patience..and patience of others.. in my life.

Well, yes, it was another

magical day. I asked for it and I got it! Tomorrow will be magical too.. cause I asked for it! I helped a friend move.. and that was good.

Yes, the day was magical.. except, I didn't hear from my girlfriend all day..no email, no phone call.. but that's all right.. I will assume that she was busy. I called her this evening too... and didn't get a return call... hey..she might had been busy.. it's late now.. she probably thinks it's too late to call, that I went to bed. It could be a test.. couldn't it! Life is a test.. relationships are tests.. on going tests. All these constant on going tests....

I was talking to my ex a few days ago and she is feeling rather crowded by her partner of two years...like she did with me but only after five or more I think... my ex really liked to be independence and a little mysterious too..like not telling you where they are going.. or what they are doing.. Seems her new partner.. wants to do everything she does... I wonder does she want to wear the same things too. My ex hated that! She was mysterious then as she is now with this partner. So, guess it ain't me.. but I still love it.. she is family to me.

I'm getting accustomed to it all I think!? I still love my ex we were always great friends. We get along very well and respect each other and what we had. I guess we just understand each other so much better now...not living together..only close by..it's better...

With my new love, I am always wondering if she is analyzing my every thought and spoken word. My reasons? Then she doesn't really tell me how she feels.. that all makes it difficult at times. I feel I"m always under the micro-scope.

But, I am more easy going now since I've been reprimanded a few times.. corrected.. scolded. Well, some times I do realize I need to be corrected or scolded.. but to dredge it up over and over again.. why? People are impatient..they expect things to fail.. so set up self fulfilled prophecies.

I wonder why is everything always a test.. for what? Am I applying for a permanent position or rather is it a test to make sure there is no permanence to this deal or whatever we are.

Who knows? I've failed a few tests because she has set me up..for failure..by speaking negatively about others.. "want to come with me"? "Well, I'm not sure now.. you didn't paint a very pretty picture of them!" Well, there you are an immediate failed test! Hello, one must learn to see.. to promote.. push the positive.. not just dwell on their negative aspects. I tell her I care for her in so many words. "I don't know why?" Hey, love is a gift! Just say "Thank you"!

Oh well! Keep 'em guessing I say! She is not meeting me half way...there are no longer any sweet words like after I dis's her friends..like I said I didn't hear anything positive.. I could be getting just a little tired of it.. the games. Why are there always games to be played...these weekly tests..what for?

I have to watch what I say because I know it will come back and haunt me.. but that is part of the plan I guess, part of the ongoing game! Some people like constant struggle or drama. Why? The like a constant negative edge.. I don't! It wears on me!

Oh, and don't you like the way, you get only one chance.. see that's the set up part.. they want you to fail. Well, they don't want me very badly then.. is the way that I see it... and it could be getting old... I don't believe in struggles or working that hard.. or setting myself up for misery... I did a lot that I didn't want to do for my whole life.. and for what? You really don't get anything out of it..

so I'm pleasing myself...

fabulous magical day...once again.

Sunny and spent with wonderful friends..think you can't beat that. Well, really you can't..unless you're at Sam's and hoping those great bikini undies will still be there. Actually, just remembering to look if they still had them was magical in itself. Well, I found the place, and searched for a size 6. Who would think that would be a popular size? Well, yes, they are bikinis...so.

I had about given up when way down at the bottom and way in the back I found a box with black, beige and white like I had bought before. Well, I especially like the black. Beige looks too nude .. and white...who in the world wears white?

To make things more magical, I found a loose black pair...size 6. I guess someone wanted all white or something.. so I carefully, opened the box of three: black, beige and white..and substituted the white for the loose black one I found.. perfect!

I sealed the box back up nicely.. magical - in itself. So all in all I got more than what I bargained for... black, plus another black pair and I'll just tolerate the one beige pair.. and just feel most fortunate that I found exactly what I was hoping to find... well let me think.. maybe I should have shot my magical moment for three pairs of black in a box.. there were boxes with three white pairs.. next time I'll keep that in mind.. go for the total magical moment.. why skimp. Okay tomorrow I'm buying a lotto ticket and win and keep it a secret and give some to my special close friend so she can kinda of free herself from a situation she is in...if she wishes. Who says money can't buy happiness.. that's only what priests and politicians tell us .. while they acquire even more riches..

Yes, I asked for the event to be magical. I always do - everything; make everything magical from here on out..I mean gloriously magical. Just make everything magical! For the rest of the day, for the rest of the week, for every second of every moment of every minute of every year for the rest of my life - make it magical. Make even my death and the here after and my next life magical too.

May I be safe, careful, thoughtful, clairvoyant with a sixth sense and ESP. Yes, I wish to be magical. I think it would really be cool to see a giant space craft hover over the crooks at the top and escort them out as they leave town.....they would be so awe struck (little shock and awe for them too!) that military would NOT be commanded to try to destroy them.. for they knew they would only look like fools... you see I think god will arrive in a space craft and burn their little greedy, obnoxious asses! Yeah, so the super sized big shots can all shit in their pants.. like it's judgment day! And wouldn't that be something! And may a big voice say "we've been watching you!" or "Put it back.. put it all back!" to the white collar greedy crooks who audaciously prance so arrogantly in public as if THEY were gods

Oh the hell with them - back to me. I thank the universe for all of my loving friends and lover. For my great running, looking car. Thanks for protecting it from harm and from "me". Thanks for protecting me and keeping me pain free, free, safe, happy, healthy, prosperous, kind, loving and getting it. Thanks for great sex! I mean thanks for great sex!

Thanks for my healthy thoughts and awareness that one has to looked out for one's self in the super-capitalist greedy corporate world so influencing all levels of government. You know I wouldn't care what they did as long as it wouldn't effect my livelihood...and I'm sure most people feel the same way. I mean you crooks do what you have to do but leave enough for us so we can have fun too! You greedy asses.. you people of little esteem. I mean I don't need all that money! I'm even willing to share.. so I should for sure get some money...because I have a generous heart!

But Ewen Cameron and Milton Friedman's "Shock and Awe" still holds true and just as in Chili in 1973, then Taiwan, then Russia, then Berlin, then they created havoc in Sri Lanke, then the Katrina levee fiasco...and on and on they go.. creating shock and awe to put super capitalism in place around the globe.. oh and Iraq of course! Never before have I seen it this bad....political super-capitalism... wanting to build bases all over Iraq and protect "their" oil! Yeah right!.. you I'm fearing people that "oil" mania will never go-away.. we will never see full force electric cars.. and smaller ones because the oil people.. as long as they are making money.. will not have it! It's the Bush dynasty that is addicted.. me us! It's not doing us any good! We are going broke while old white oil bucks are getting wealthier. Mark my words.. oil will never go away. Hey, plastic can be made from corn syrup.. we don't need oil.. these guys are nuts!

Think I'm kidding? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein; "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer and "Supercapitalism" by Robert B. Riech.

Oh, and while you are at it watch the DVD: "Who Killed the Electric Car?" and "Iraq for Sale: War for Profit". There all that should keep you busy for a while!

In the interim - don't forget to count your blessings and think positive and "plan you future" Yes, your thoughts are very powerful and "run" your life. It's true!

We will all prosper very, very soon! And Cheney and bunch won't be pulling any more stunts before they leave the White House...because they know it wouldn't do them any good. Besides haven't they ripped us off all enough.. we have nothing left.. they have it all in their greedy pockets...they and their CEO buddies..

Since when do big shot CEO's get more money than share holders.. since when do CEO's make 400 x's more than their employees... shouldn't there be a ceiling? A law against that? Hello? Mr. President.. isn't that your job - over-seeing just what goes on... and to regulate or at least conserve the cheating (of the tax payers) that goes on. What do we get out of it? I'm still waiting... hey where's my bail-out? The bail-out should consist of decent paying jobs.. and plenty of jobs.. and clean, decent, non-toxic, dependable products.. there should be regulation re-instated and laws put back into place to protect the consumer....Bush and Cheney torn them all down...

Will, once again... back to me. Thank you so much universe for my many blessings. I love to type.. can you imagine writing a book by hand.. not me. Hell, I wouldn't be able to read it for one thing..besides cramping hands and fingers...slowing the process.

Think I'll write a book--this evening.. I love to type.

Thank you universe, once again. Thanks you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette.. you all take care of each other now. I know Emma is happy.. I miss her very much but I can feel her presence and her happiness. I know Ezekiel and Edy and Georgette are right here too....yippee!

You know what I think that even though Emma and the rest of you may have been reincarnated and come back to earth to do more good work... I think a part of your consciousness feels my prayers, my thankfulness, gratefulness and good wishes, and love for you.. thank you so much! Can't wait to meet you all one day.

In the interim, please keep me running, swimming, biking and dancing happy, with a brilliant memory and knowledge without limits. I can remember all names, years, dates, articles, thoughts, books, papers, and I can quote when, what and whoever I want. I am brilliant....and cute! I remain youthful in my appearance.. now and forever. I live a healthy life because I have the time to do the research and the energy and the knowledge to know "you can't trust them" those - drug companies are out to make a buck! It's that Milton Friedman Laissez Fa ire mentality!