Now I'm not tired..I was tired all day. It's been a very busy four days or more. I'm going to miss her tonight.. I've spent the last four nights with her. Being with her feels so natural. I'll miss her tonight..I'm hoping she feels the same way about me.
Mystical, magical and spiritual! Christmas eve day, the 24th, went with two friends to visit Ezekiel my special spirit guide.
Ezekiel tells me to get into my art that I need to display it and when I do I'll make lots of money doing it. I need to get my butt in gear. I asked him what media he sees me doing my best and that is where I will concentrate. I for one, cannot decide, maybe photography? He agrees. I listed photography with several other artist choices. I think he liked photography the best.
Oh any excuse for me to buy that MacBook! Maybe a new camera too! Yeah right.. no one won't!
Life is grand! I love photography... to capture split seconds in time and frame.
I'm tired and fighting it. Maybe I don't want to sleep without her next to me.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Just proves that maybe we do create
our own realties! Well Ezekiel rather narrows down to a fine point what I have been thinking anyway. So I think he reads the aura around me, past, present and future. And it's my thoughts that have produced that aura.
I guess through me he sees how my special someone is and how it effects me. Lately my special someone is about as cool and casual as any acquaintance or distance friend that I know. I hope things change - soon. And yet she wants to go with me to different events and sleep with me. She never tells me she loves me or that she misses me..she did at first. I'm getting tired of feeling that I am being put through a test..an on-going test. So from here on out..I'll just play the game too.
I guess it's her way of controlling, whipping me into shape I guess.
I like her and it's nice to have someone accompany me to different functions. But, without the affection intimacy is suffering on my part. She on the other hand can be cool and still get her jollies. I have no idea just how that works.
Damn, if I would have had time today I would have asked Ezekiel about that..like why does it matter to me..why am I so sensitive.
Ezekiel, by the way, is a channeled spirit who speaks through a woman. The woman is quite someone.. a real character..but that is beside the point. I feel sorry for her in her own misery..constant and getting worse everytime I see her interestingly enough.
So Ezekiel tells me my art will bring me money..he told me that last year when I was there. Guess I'll concentrate more on it then. I told him I can't decide which median and when I mentioned photography he went on and on about the captured split second. I am so tired now I could take a nap. Maybe I'll drink some coffee.. lots to do this evening.. like being entertaining.
I guess through me he sees how my special someone is and how it effects me. Lately my special someone is about as cool and casual as any acquaintance or distance friend that I know. I hope things change - soon. And yet she wants to go with me to different events and sleep with me. She never tells me she loves me or that she misses me..she did at first. I'm getting tired of feeling that I am being put through a test..an on-going test. So from here on out..I'll just play the game too.
I guess it's her way of controlling, whipping me into shape I guess.
I like her and it's nice to have someone accompany me to different functions. But, without the affection intimacy is suffering on my part. She on the other hand can be cool and still get her jollies. I have no idea just how that works.
Damn, if I would have had time today I would have asked Ezekiel about that..like why does it matter to me..why am I so sensitive.
Ezekiel, by the way, is a channeled spirit who speaks through a woman. The woman is quite someone.. a real character..but that is beside the point. I feel sorry for her in her own misery..constant and getting worse everytime I see her interestingly enough.
So Ezekiel tells me my art will bring me money..he told me that last year when I was there. Guess I'll concentrate more on it then. I told him I can't decide which median and when I mentioned photography he went on and on about the captured split second. I am so tired now I could take a nap. Maybe I'll drink some coffee.. lots to do this evening.. like being entertaining.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Mystical, Magical, may need to shred
one pair of socks. While I'm waiting for my date.. to get here.. we are going to a lesbian union..my first to attend. Oddly enough I find this will be the third for my straight friend who will be accompanied by her gay friend..seems her boyfriend was busy..
Okay, here goes the extra pair of socks off my feet and into a sandwich bag into my small handbag.It's a psychological security thing. I look hot by the way! I've got my lipstick on and a nice glow to my cheeks. No eye makeup.. or actual makeup..it gets dull and settles into facial lines.. I just have Shark Liver oil topical blend made to apply to your face. It's not cheap either.. but "natural" and I think diminishes lines rather them like make-up which enhances facial lines.
How let you know how the evening goes..
Okay, here goes the extra pair of socks off my feet and into a sandwich bag into my small handbag.It's a psychological security thing. I look hot by the way! I've got my lipstick on and a nice glow to my cheeks. No eye makeup.. or actual makeup..it gets dull and settles into facial lines.. I just have Shark Liver oil topical blend made to apply to your face. It's not cheap either.. but "natural" and I think diminishes lines rather them like make-up which enhances facial lines.
How let you know how the evening goes..
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Clean off my car too.. will you..
I'm watching the woman across the street clear the snow from her car...well after she worked the doors a bit to even get in. Her wipers were frozen and she is making sure she clean them good too before backing out and heading out. Is she ever tall..or her car is short. Well, I'm so used to short men standing near tall SUV's and pick-ups. You know the American way! Apparently, huge builds not only tall vehicles but abundant esteems..probably why they rush to tailgate and dominate.
It's so American, we in American like to dominate and over take...other countries. We take what we want. The woman across the street has backed out and came back twice. Surely, she sees her windshield wipers are sticking straight up in the air still?
I'll need to get out for sure tomorrow if not today to go to the gym today I'm working on a sculpturing projects..perhaps two, if this turns out okay. I'm merely warming up my fingers typing, because I begin to file and chicle and carve.
And how about that Berny Mayo or whatever his name is? What a crook? He falsified monthly investment statements to project a safe steady gain. Older people in Florida have lost everything and so many more. They trusted this guy! I say into the clinker with him for a long time! Just like those Enron clowns the younger, lower levels take the heat while Ken Lay is probably basing on a tropical beach somewhere and operating out of a huge Swiss bank account. You really think he had a heart attack and died right before his trail? Come on? He was too buddy buddy with Bush and company!
Yeah and Bush just bought a two million dollar house in Texas with his lobbyist kickbacks. Wonder what Cheney is going to do with all his money? And Rove. Oh, I know what Rove will be doing - grooming Jeb for 2012. Amazing? What do you think? Jeb or Carolyn in 2012? How about Chelsea?
So where do you think we'll be in 2012? All green with cheaper living, better jobs and I'll be able to take a vacation or buy a new car just because. Or how about redecorating and replacing this 1985 decor? You know - give us a decent market and we'll have some cash to buy some of YOUR products. I guess the extreme greedy CEO personnel didn't get that memo.. but rather stuck all the proceeds into there own pockets rather than pay the stock holders or their employees and what's worse.. Bush was behind it all. Big shot leaders should not get anymore than a small percent of the proceeds of the company.. not as much as they WANT! That's embezzling company funds? And they were all on each other's boards so of course they voted the increase in salaries in..for each other. People! They took the money and ran and the hell with the stock holders.. so why aren't there asses in jail?
So now they are going to impeach the governor of Illinois because they wanted to sell Obama's old Senate seat.. but in Washington we have all those in the white house and on capital hill taking funds from lobbyist..so what's the difference I ask? Buying promises, votes and buying favors.. is just that! It's the same thing! Isn't it?
I just looked at the radar and we are going to get blasted.. the wind is coming from the North and it's showing solid white across the radar screen...maybe I'll call my friend in the hospital and visit her tomorrow. I'll see what my neighbor friend is going to do.. I'd call her but I know she is not up and about yet...I think we have a window now. We should go earlier.. before it all starts. I'll call her soon....
Time to clean off my car.. just had a great breakfast of low-carb pancakes and great cup of Starbucks..at home..blueberries int he pancakes.. good stuff! It's 16 degrees out! Ugh! This bad weather is coming too soon....I certainly hope the holiday weather is good....and my girlfriend lives off of a drop off no shoulder scary road....hope she makes it okay. And of course she has American car problems in this cold weather.. amazing! And it always makes strange sounds? Why is that?
It's so American, we in American like to dominate and over take...other countries. We take what we want. The woman across the street has backed out and came back twice. Surely, she sees her windshield wipers are sticking straight up in the air still?
I'll need to get out for sure tomorrow if not today to go to the gym today I'm working on a sculpturing projects..perhaps two, if this turns out okay. I'm merely warming up my fingers typing, because I begin to file and chicle and carve.
And how about that Berny Mayo or whatever his name is? What a crook? He falsified monthly investment statements to project a safe steady gain. Older people in Florida have lost everything and so many more. They trusted this guy! I say into the clinker with him for a long time! Just like those Enron clowns the younger, lower levels take the heat while Ken Lay is probably basing on a tropical beach somewhere and operating out of a huge Swiss bank account. You really think he had a heart attack and died right before his trail? Come on? He was too buddy buddy with Bush and company!
Yeah and Bush just bought a two million dollar house in Texas with his lobbyist kickbacks. Wonder what Cheney is going to do with all his money? And Rove. Oh, I know what Rove will be doing - grooming Jeb for 2012. Amazing? What do you think? Jeb or Carolyn in 2012? How about Chelsea?
So where do you think we'll be in 2012? All green with cheaper living, better jobs and I'll be able to take a vacation or buy a new car just because. Or how about redecorating and replacing this 1985 decor? You know - give us a decent market and we'll have some cash to buy some of YOUR products. I guess the extreme greedy CEO personnel didn't get that memo.. but rather stuck all the proceeds into there own pockets rather than pay the stock holders or their employees and what's worse.. Bush was behind it all. Big shot leaders should not get anymore than a small percent of the proceeds of the company.. not as much as they WANT! That's embezzling company funds? And they were all on each other's boards so of course they voted the increase in salaries in..for each other. People! They took the money and ran and the hell with the stock holders.. so why aren't there asses in jail?
So now they are going to impeach the governor of Illinois because they wanted to sell Obama's old Senate seat.. but in Washington we have all those in the white house and on capital hill taking funds from lobbyist..so what's the difference I ask? Buying promises, votes and buying favors.. is just that! It's the same thing! Isn't it?
I just looked at the radar and we are going to get blasted.. the wind is coming from the North and it's showing solid white across the radar screen...maybe I'll call my friend in the hospital and visit her tomorrow. I'll see what my neighbor friend is going to do.. I'd call her but I know she is not up and about yet...I think we have a window now. We should go earlier.. before it all starts. I'll call her soon....
Time to clean off my car.. just had a great breakfast of low-carb pancakes and great cup of Starbucks..at home..blueberries int he pancakes.. good stuff! It's 16 degrees out! Ugh! This bad weather is coming too soon....I certainly hope the holiday weather is good....and my girlfriend lives off of a drop off no shoulder scary road....hope she makes it okay. And of course she has American car problems in this cold weather.. amazing! And it always makes strange sounds? Why is that?
Monday, December 15, 2008
Ezekiel... we are coming to talk to you...
I am eagerly anticipating Christmas Eve...no not for gifts or partying but for visiting with my extra special spirit guide, Ezekiel! Yes via a channel.
Well, my two friends had mentioned going to speak to him several times now in the past few months.. but you know me sometimes it takes me several times to "get the message" I guess!
I made the appointments this morning.. now I need to buy a tape player.. so I can listen to the tape after visiting with Ezekiel.
Wonder what I'll learn this time? Maybe I'll buy the tape player tomorrow so I can listen to the tapes I have.. all six at least.
I feel restless like something is about to happen.. like an awakening.. perhaps the dawn of a new clairvoyance. An awareness brought forward...a brilliance shared. I'm trying.
Get a load of this.. I was listening to The View this morning with Elisabeth and Joy arguing over the "god" theory.. well, evolution verses the big bang. God did this and god did that.. and god created this and that etc., well you get the idea per Elisabeth.. she's as Christian as Christ himself! :( I agree more with Joy..the bang theory.. science all the way.. no not actually.. well, here's my theory!
My theory is quantum physics... we are all connected.. We have the power. We are ALL gods! The sad truth is.. that no one realizes that and because we are not aware of our intelligence and power we haven't even begun to tap into our extraordinary brilliance and energies to even begin to realize our capacities. We choose and create our destinies before we are even born..in a "contract" if you will? Life is indeed an unknown adventure.. because we forget the contract.. our job is to rediscover our journey's contract.
I feel I need to do something profound..well at least profound to me. I wish to be magical and excited about life and the powers I have and to recognize and use those powers. Our thoughts are very powerful so be careful of what you spend your day thinking about. We are too as young as we wish.. as young as we feel so goes the saying. "It's all in your head" rings true!
I wish to read the minds of those close to me.. feel their passions, their thoughts and energy. Think ahead! My vocabulary soars.. my pronunciations march out bright and clear; distinct and alert. My mind is quite and correct. Total recall! Quick reflexes! Brave and brilliant, clever and wise! I wish to have a special connection with animals and man..mostly women!
We have the intelligence to use our time here on earth - well! So why are we so barbaric still? Why all this war? This is the 21st century after all we can put a man on the moon.. or was that all fiction? Wag the dog, perhaps?
I know how and what my love thinks at times. I miss her... looks like I won't get to see her until the weekend. She is what I wanted.. I got what I wanted.
You see I know people in high places.. I helped them.. yes, there on the other side.. I helped them.. I helped get them together.. I have the tape. I talk to them all the time.. well I pray to them more or else. I offered to help them in the past and will do so again. In doing so they knew I prefer, magical, fun, healthy, youthful, happy, beautiful, exciting, loving.. ways to help them. I could tell you more.. but I won't right now..
Yet, the world is so magical.. I love it! Life is beautiful.. if only we realized our powers. We so live in the past.. we are so primitive!
But, I have hope for the future.. after 1/20/09.. being "green" will kick off and oil will trickle!
Right now science is making fuel from run away reproduction algae. One guy is using a vine type plant that grows in abundance around poles, fences and trees in the South.
I only wonder... will the big shot oil, auto and tire.. crush them out.. all the "green" engineers.. will they be crushed out?
We need a world without oil and without engineered corn, soy and wheat crops produced by big industry.. we need to clear Washington of lobbyist and money grabbers. They have ran their course.. it's time for new thoughts.. green thoughts.. wind, solar, and water power...friction?
What a concept wheels turning that create electrical power..talk about on the fly re-charging.. re-creating electrical power. Now in a Toyota Prius the brakes being used creates electrical power and charges the battery - a hybrid..
But totally electric, cheap enough, brilliant! Life is grand!
Well, my two friends had mentioned going to speak to him several times now in the past few months.. but you know me sometimes it takes me several times to "get the message" I guess!
I made the appointments this morning.. now I need to buy a tape player.. so I can listen to the tape after visiting with Ezekiel.
Wonder what I'll learn this time? Maybe I'll buy the tape player tomorrow so I can listen to the tapes I have.. all six at least.
I feel restless like something is about to happen.. like an awakening.. perhaps the dawn of a new clairvoyance. An awareness brought forward...a brilliance shared. I'm trying.
Get a load of this.. I was listening to The View this morning with Elisabeth and Joy arguing over the "god" theory.. well, evolution verses the big bang. God did this and god did that.. and god created this and that etc., well you get the idea per Elisabeth.. she's as Christian as Christ himself! :( I agree more with Joy..the bang theory.. science all the way.. no not actually.. well, here's my theory!
My theory is quantum physics... we are all connected.. We have the power. We are ALL gods! The sad truth is.. that no one realizes that and because we are not aware of our intelligence and power we haven't even begun to tap into our extraordinary brilliance and energies to even begin to realize our capacities. We choose and create our destinies before we are even born..in a "contract" if you will? Life is indeed an unknown adventure.. because we forget the contract.. our job is to rediscover our journey's contract.
I feel I need to do something profound..well at least profound to me. I wish to be magical and excited about life and the powers I have and to recognize and use those powers. Our thoughts are very powerful so be careful of what you spend your day thinking about. We are too as young as we wish.. as young as we feel so goes the saying. "It's all in your head" rings true!
I wish to read the minds of those close to me.. feel their passions, their thoughts and energy. Think ahead! My vocabulary soars.. my pronunciations march out bright and clear; distinct and alert. My mind is quite and correct. Total recall! Quick reflexes! Brave and brilliant, clever and wise! I wish to have a special connection with animals and man..mostly women!
We have the intelligence to use our time here on earth - well! So why are we so barbaric still? Why all this war? This is the 21st century after all we can put a man on the moon.. or was that all fiction? Wag the dog, perhaps?
I know how and what my love thinks at times. I miss her... looks like I won't get to see her until the weekend. She is what I wanted.. I got what I wanted.
You see I know people in high places.. I helped them.. yes, there on the other side.. I helped them.. I helped get them together.. I have the tape. I talk to them all the time.. well I pray to them more or else. I offered to help them in the past and will do so again. In doing so they knew I prefer, magical, fun, healthy, youthful, happy, beautiful, exciting, loving.. ways to help them. I could tell you more.. but I won't right now..
Yet, the world is so magical.. I love it! Life is beautiful.. if only we realized our powers. We so live in the past.. we are so primitive!
But, I have hope for the future.. after 1/20/09.. being "green" will kick off and oil will trickle!
Right now science is making fuel from run away reproduction algae. One guy is using a vine type plant that grows in abundance around poles, fences and trees in the South.
I only wonder... will the big shot oil, auto and tire.. crush them out.. all the "green" engineers.. will they be crushed out?
We need a world without oil and without engineered corn, soy and wheat crops produced by big industry.. we need to clear Washington of lobbyist and money grabbers. They have ran their course.. it's time for new thoughts.. green thoughts.. wind, solar, and water power...friction?
What a concept wheels turning that create electrical power..talk about on the fly re-charging.. re-creating electrical power. Now in a Toyota Prius the brakes being used creates electrical power and charges the battery - a hybrid..
But totally electric, cheap enough, brilliant! Life is grand!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Ezekiel
Which I could get deeper into the spiritual world..and become more inept, perhaps more clairvoyant realizing thought and emotions by observations, gestures, speech style and tones. What's really going on?
I feel I'm on the edge, on the verge of deeper discovery.. I understand, I think, that spirits passed over can also be back here on earth living another life. In more places than one? Why not! It's spiritual.. a thought process! But they can still be "there" on the other side for us.
Ezekiel, my special spirit knows past, present and future. I believe in the spirit world it all happens at the same time: past, present, and future. And why now!
Humans, Christians and government, pretty much work the same way using shock and awe to manipulate and control human beings for their own service. Oh they keep us power for a reason.. control. Look at Hitler.. he starved people to get their attention.. he used all money that was every available.. for his war machine.
Governments are ran by greedy powerful business people wanting to become more powerful.
No one in power is spiritual or giving or godlike. That is not part of the game. One needs to be ruthless and greedy to be powerful.. and controlling..and evil!
Power means overtaking what you want for your own needs and greed! Don't ever think the government actually cares and is looking out for our best interest. Homeland security - not! Shock and awe for control and manipulation - yes!
Gee, I wonder what they are up to now.. Boston Legal's Shirley.. swears the Chinese will buy us out.. will they pretty much have.. we are in trillions of dollars in debt to them..they can take what they want I guess. Like Shirley said during the show.. you can't argue with your banker! Certainly can't get them mad! Just what were our guys in industry and Washington thinking about? Borrowing money from one country to make another country rich as we buy their oil. Are did we actually think we would get some kind of control in the middle east.. putting a foot print there in the way of "democratizing" Iraq? Just what are we up too.
Want a good read? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein.. and "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer
Oh, and too, watch the DVD "Who Killed the Electric Car?"
I feel I'm on the edge, on the verge of deeper discovery.. I understand, I think, that spirits passed over can also be back here on earth living another life. In more places than one? Why not! It's spiritual.. a thought process! But they can still be "there" on the other side for us.
Ezekiel, my special spirit knows past, present and future. I believe in the spirit world it all happens at the same time: past, present, and future. And why now!
Humans, Christians and government, pretty much work the same way using shock and awe to manipulate and control human beings for their own service. Oh they keep us power for a reason.. control. Look at Hitler.. he starved people to get their attention.. he used all money that was every available.. for his war machine.
Governments are ran by greedy powerful business people wanting to become more powerful.
No one in power is spiritual or giving or godlike. That is not part of the game. One needs to be ruthless and greedy to be powerful.. and controlling..and evil!
Power means overtaking what you want for your own needs and greed! Don't ever think the government actually cares and is looking out for our best interest. Homeland security - not! Shock and awe for control and manipulation - yes!
Gee, I wonder what they are up to now.. Boston Legal's Shirley.. swears the Chinese will buy us out.. will they pretty much have.. we are in trillions of dollars in debt to them..they can take what they want I guess. Like Shirley said during the show.. you can't argue with your banker! Certainly can't get them mad! Just what were our guys in industry and Washington thinking about? Borrowing money from one country to make another country rich as we buy their oil. Are did we actually think we would get some kind of control in the middle east.. putting a foot print there in the way of "democratizing" Iraq? Just what are we up too.
Want a good read? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein.. and "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer
Oh, and too, watch the DVD "Who Killed the Electric Car?"
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
A Warm Spiritual Rain is
falling tonight and leads into a warm, cloudy, sleepy day in which I will try to get my butt out there to rain in between showers and possible thunder showers.
It's off to the gym to swim, work-out, cycle, and treadmill jog.. hopefully. I'd rather run out doors.. maybe I'll get it in.
In the interim, I wish to thank the universe for all of my many riches, treasures, loves, warmth, good cheer! Jolly Holidays!
May my love invite me.. I'll eagerly go.. where ever she goes. I love her. I do declare I believe I am in love!
So warm, soft, firm, wonderful! I thank the universe. I wish tomorrow a magical day just like today.. but I must exercise sometime. I love my freedom. I wished however, for her to move closer in.. to me!
I can't believe I didn't spend any money today..for a change. Thank you universe. Thank you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette for protecting me, my car, my home, my appliances and watching out over me. I do appreciate and need your help! Please remain close by. Thanks!
Life is grand and I love this new Google front end to all of my bookmarks... it's really cool and has an auto spell check too. Life is good!
Yes, life is indeed mystical, magical and spiritual.. thank you so much for all of my many wonderful blessings.
It's off to the gym to swim, work-out, cycle, and treadmill jog.. hopefully. I'd rather run out doors.. maybe I'll get it in.
In the interim, I wish to thank the universe for all of my many riches, treasures, loves, warmth, good cheer! Jolly Holidays!
May my love invite me.. I'll eagerly go.. where ever she goes. I love her. I do declare I believe I am in love!
So warm, soft, firm, wonderful! I thank the universe. I wish tomorrow a magical day just like today.. but I must exercise sometime. I love my freedom. I wished however, for her to move closer in.. to me!
I can't believe I didn't spend any money today..for a change. Thank you universe. Thank you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette for protecting me, my car, my home, my appliances and watching out over me. I do appreciate and need your help! Please remain close by. Thanks!
Life is grand and I love this new Google front end to all of my bookmarks... it's really cool and has an auto spell check too. Life is good!
Yes, life is indeed mystical, magical and spiritual.. thank you so much for all of my many wonderful blessings.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
all that said.. I am grateful for all of my many
blessings! I have great health, happiness, well power, I've learned to eat healthy and love it! I'm off sugar.. which is an inflammatory agent...not good! I had gotten carried away with energy drinks and gels. Again, not good!
I feel much better now and thank the universe for my boundless energy and clear minded thinking. Thanks for keeping me safe and protecting me and sending me great friends. Thanks!
Life is good and I am very grateful to have wonderful people in my life! I thank the univese and especially my spirit guides whom I know what out and over me.. Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Georgette. My magical!
Thank you for a great nights sleep too - in advance! Thanks for my patience..and patience of others.. in my life.
I feel much better now and thank the universe for my boundless energy and clear minded thinking. Thanks for keeping me safe and protecting me and sending me great friends. Thanks!
Life is good and I am very grateful to have wonderful people in my life! I thank the univese and especially my spirit guides whom I know what out and over me.. Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Georgette. My magical!
Thank you for a great nights sleep too - in advance! Thanks for my patience..and patience of others.. in my life.
Well, yes, it was another
magical day. I asked for it and I got it! Tomorrow will be magical too.. cause I asked for it! I helped a friend move.. and that was good.
Yes, the day was magical.. except, I didn't hear from my girlfriend all day..no email, no phone call.. but that's all right.. I will assume that she was busy. I called her this evening too... and didn't get a return call... hey..she might had been busy.. it's late now.. she probably thinks it's too late to call, that I went to bed. It could be a test.. couldn't it! Life is a test.. relationships are tests.. on going tests. All these constant on going tests....
I was talking to my ex a few days ago and she is feeling rather crowded by her partner of two years...like she did with me but only after five or more I think... my ex really liked to be independence and a little mysterious too..like not telling you where they are going.. or what they are doing.. Seems her new partner.. wants to do everything she does... I wonder does she want to wear the same things too. My ex hated that! She was mysterious then as she is now with this partner. So, guess it ain't me.. but I still love it.. she is family to me.
I'm getting accustomed to it all I think!? I still love my ex we were always great friends. We get along very well and respect each other and what we had. I guess we just understand each other so much better now...not living together..only close by..it's better...
With my new love, I am always wondering if she is analyzing my every thought and spoken word. My reasons? Then she doesn't really tell me how she feels.. that all makes it difficult at times. I feel I"m always under the micro-scope.
But, I am more easy going now since I've been reprimanded a few times.. corrected.. scolded. Well, some times I do realize I need to be corrected or scolded.. but to dredge it up over and over again.. why? People are impatient..they expect things to fail.. so set up self fulfilled prophecies.
I wonder why is everything always a test.. for what? Am I applying for a permanent position or rather is it a test to make sure there is no permanence to this deal or whatever we are.
Who knows? I've failed a few tests because she has set me up..for failure..by speaking negatively about others.. "want to come with me"? "Well, I'm not sure now.. you didn't paint a very pretty picture of them!" Well, there you are an immediate failed test! Hello, one must learn to see.. to promote.. push the positive.. not just dwell on their negative aspects. I tell her I care for her in so many words. "I don't know why?" Hey, love is a gift! Just say "Thank you"!
Oh well! Keep 'em guessing I say! She is not meeting me half way...there are no longer any sweet words like after I dis's her friends..like I said I didn't hear anything positive.. I could be getting just a little tired of it.. the games. Why are there always games to be played...these weekly tests..what for?
I have to watch what I say because I know it will come back and haunt me.. but that is part of the plan I guess, part of the ongoing game! Some people like constant struggle or drama. Why? The like a constant negative edge.. I don't! It wears on me!
Oh, and don't you like the way, you get only one chance.. see that's the set up part.. they want you to fail. Well, they don't want me very badly then.. is the way that I see it... and it could be getting old... I don't believe in struggles or working that hard.. or setting myself up for misery... I did a lot that I didn't want to do for my whole life.. and for what? You really don't get anything out of it..
so I'm pleasing myself...
Yes, the day was magical.. except, I didn't hear from my girlfriend all day..no email, no phone call.. but that's all right.. I will assume that she was busy. I called her this evening too... and didn't get a return call... hey..she might had been busy.. it's late now.. she probably thinks it's too late to call, that I went to bed. It could be a test.. couldn't it! Life is a test.. relationships are tests.. on going tests. All these constant on going tests....
I was talking to my ex a few days ago and she is feeling rather crowded by her partner of two years...like she did with me but only after five or more I think... my ex really liked to be independence and a little mysterious too..like not telling you where they are going.. or what they are doing.. Seems her new partner.. wants to do everything she does... I wonder does she want to wear the same things too. My ex hated that! She was mysterious then as she is now with this partner. So, guess it ain't me.. but I still love it.. she is family to me.
I'm getting accustomed to it all I think!? I still love my ex we were always great friends. We get along very well and respect each other and what we had. I guess we just understand each other so much better now...not living together..only close by..it's better...
With my new love, I am always wondering if she is analyzing my every thought and spoken word. My reasons? Then she doesn't really tell me how she feels.. that all makes it difficult at times. I feel I"m always under the micro-scope.
But, I am more easy going now since I've been reprimanded a few times.. corrected.. scolded. Well, some times I do realize I need to be corrected or scolded.. but to dredge it up over and over again.. why? People are impatient..they expect things to fail.. so set up self fulfilled prophecies.
I wonder why is everything always a test.. for what? Am I applying for a permanent position or rather is it a test to make sure there is no permanence to this deal or whatever we are.
Who knows? I've failed a few tests because she has set me up..for failure..by speaking negatively about others.. "want to come with me"? "Well, I'm not sure now.. you didn't paint a very pretty picture of them!" Well, there you are an immediate failed test! Hello, one must learn to see.. to promote.. push the positive.. not just dwell on their negative aspects. I tell her I care for her in so many words. "I don't know why?" Hey, love is a gift! Just say "Thank you"!
Oh well! Keep 'em guessing I say! She is not meeting me half way...there are no longer any sweet words like after I dis's her friends..like I said I didn't hear anything positive.. I could be getting just a little tired of it.. the games. Why are there always games to be played...these weekly tests..what for?
I have to watch what I say because I know it will come back and haunt me.. but that is part of the plan I guess, part of the ongoing game! Some people like constant struggle or drama. Why? The like a constant negative edge.. I don't! It wears on me!
Oh, and don't you like the way, you get only one chance.. see that's the set up part.. they want you to fail. Well, they don't want me very badly then.. is the way that I see it... and it could be getting old... I don't believe in struggles or working that hard.. or setting myself up for misery... I did a lot that I didn't want to do for my whole life.. and for what? You really don't get anything out of it..
so I'm pleasing myself...
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
fabulous magical day...once again.
Sunny and spent with wonderful friends..think you can't beat that. Well, really you can't..unless you're at Sam's and hoping those great bikini undies will still be there. Actually, just remembering to look if they still had them was magical in itself. Well, I found the place, and searched for a size 6. Who would think that would be a popular size? Well, yes, they are bikinis...so.
I had about given up when way down at the bottom and way in the back I found a box with black, beige and white like I had bought before. Well, I especially like the black. Beige looks too nude .. and white...who in the world wears white?
To make things more magical, I found a loose black pair...size 6. I guess someone wanted all white or something.. so I carefully, opened the box of three: black, beige and white..and substituted the white for the loose black one I found.. perfect!
I sealed the box back up nicely.. magical - in itself. So all in all I got more than what I bargained for... black, plus another black pair and I'll just tolerate the one beige pair.. and just feel most fortunate that I found exactly what I was hoping to find... well let me think.. maybe I should have shot my magical moment for three pairs of black in a box.. there were boxes with three white pairs.. next time I'll keep that in mind.. go for the total magical moment.. why skimp. Okay tomorrow I'm buying a lotto ticket and win and keep it a secret and give some to my special close friend so she can kinda of free herself from a situation she is in...if she wishes. Who says money can't buy happiness.. that's only what priests and politicians tell us .. while they acquire even more riches..
Yes, I asked for the event to be magical. I always do - everything; make everything magical from here on out..I mean gloriously magical. Just make everything magical! For the rest of the day, for the rest of the week, for every second of every moment of every minute of every year for the rest of my life - make it magical. Make even my death and the here after and my next life magical too.
May I be safe, careful, thoughtful, clairvoyant with a sixth sense and ESP. Yes, I wish to be magical. I think it would really be cool to see a giant space craft hover over the crooks at the top and escort them out as they leave town.....they would be so awe struck (little shock and awe for them too!) that military would NOT be commanded to try to destroy them.. for they knew they would only look like fools... you see I think god will arrive in a space craft and burn their little greedy, obnoxious asses! Yeah, so the super sized big shots can all shit in their pants.. like it's judgment day! And wouldn't that be something! And may a big voice say "we've been watching you!" or "Put it back.. put it all back!" to the white collar greedy crooks who audaciously prance so arrogantly in public as if THEY were gods
Oh the hell with them - back to me. I thank the universe for all of my loving friends and lover. For my great running, looking car. Thanks for protecting it from harm and from "me". Thanks for protecting me and keeping me pain free, free, safe, happy, healthy, prosperous, kind, loving and getting it. Thanks for great sex! I mean thanks for great sex!
Thanks for my healthy thoughts and awareness that one has to looked out for one's self in the super-capitalist greedy corporate world so influencing all levels of government. You know I wouldn't care what they did as long as it wouldn't effect my livelihood...and I'm sure most people feel the same way. I mean you crooks do what you have to do but leave enough for us so we can have fun too! You greedy asses.. you people of little esteem. I mean I don't need all that money! I'm even willing to share.. so I should for sure get some money...because I have a generous heart!
But Ewen Cameron and Milton Friedman's "Shock and Awe" still holds true and just as in Chili in 1973, then Taiwan, then Russia, then Berlin, then they created havoc in Sri Lanke, then the Katrina levee fiasco...and on and on they go.. creating shock and awe to put super capitalism in place around the globe.. oh and Iraq of course! Never before have I seen it this bad....political super-capitalism... wanting to build bases all over Iraq and protect "their" oil! Yeah right!.. you I'm fearing people that "oil" mania will never go-away.. we will never see full force electric cars.. and smaller ones because the oil people.. as long as they are making money.. will not have it! It's the Bush dynasty that is addicted.. me us! It's not doing us any good! We are going broke while old white oil bucks are getting wealthier. Mark my words.. oil will never go away. Hey, plastic can be made from corn syrup.. we don't need oil.. these guys are nuts!
Think I'm kidding? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein; "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer and "Supercapitalism" by Robert B. Riech.
Oh, and while you are at it watch the DVD: "Who Killed the Electric Car?" and "Iraq for Sale: War for Profit". There all that should keep you busy for a while!
In the interim - don't forget to count your blessings and think positive and "plan you future" Yes, your thoughts are very powerful and "run" your life. It's true!
We will all prosper very, very soon! And Cheney and bunch won't be pulling any more stunts before they leave the White House...because they know it wouldn't do them any good. Besides haven't they ripped us off all enough.. we have nothing left.. they have it all in their greedy pockets...they and their CEO buddies..
Since when do big shot CEO's get more money than share holders.. since when do CEO's make 400 x's more than their employees... shouldn't there be a ceiling? A law against that? Hello? Mr. President.. isn't that your job - over-seeing just what goes on... and to regulate or at least conserve the cheating (of the tax payers) that goes on. What do we get out of it? I'm still waiting... hey where's my bail-out? The bail-out should consist of decent paying jobs.. and plenty of jobs.. and clean, decent, non-toxic, dependable products.. there should be regulation re-instated and laws put back into place to protect the consumer....Bush and Cheney torn them all down...
Will, once again... back to me. Thank you so much universe for my many blessings. I love to type.. can you imagine writing a book by hand.. not me. Hell, I wouldn't be able to read it for one thing..besides cramping hands and fingers...slowing the process.
Think I'll write a book--this evening.. I love to type.
Thank you universe, once again. Thanks you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette.. you all take care of each other now. I know Emma is happy.. I miss her very much but I can feel her presence and her happiness. I know Ezekiel and Edy and Georgette are right here too....yippee!
You know what I think that even though Emma and the rest of you may have been reincarnated and come back to earth to do more good work... I think a part of your consciousness feels my prayers, my thankfulness, gratefulness and good wishes, and love for you.. thank you so much! Can't wait to meet you all one day.
In the interim, please keep me running, swimming, biking and dancing happy, with a brilliant memory and knowledge without limits. I can remember all names, years, dates, articles, thoughts, books, papers, and I can quote when, what and whoever I want. I am brilliant....and cute! I remain youthful in my appearance.. now and forever. I live a healthy life because I have the time to do the research and the energy and the knowledge to know "you can't trust them" those - drug companies are out to make a buck! It's that Milton Friedman Laissez Fa ire mentality!
I had about given up when way down at the bottom and way in the back I found a box with black, beige and white like I had bought before. Well, I especially like the black. Beige looks too nude .. and white...who in the world wears white?
To make things more magical, I found a loose black pair...size 6. I guess someone wanted all white or something.. so I carefully, opened the box of three: black, beige and white..and substituted the white for the loose black one I found.. perfect!
I sealed the box back up nicely.. magical - in itself. So all in all I got more than what I bargained for... black, plus another black pair and I'll just tolerate the one beige pair.. and just feel most fortunate that I found exactly what I was hoping to find... well let me think.. maybe I should have shot my magical moment for three pairs of black in a box.. there were boxes with three white pairs.. next time I'll keep that in mind.. go for the total magical moment.. why skimp. Okay tomorrow I'm buying a lotto ticket and win and keep it a secret and give some to my special close friend so she can kinda of free herself from a situation she is in...if she wishes. Who says money can't buy happiness.. that's only what priests and politicians tell us .. while they acquire even more riches..
Yes, I asked for the event to be magical. I always do - everything; make everything magical from here on out..I mean gloriously magical. Just make everything magical! For the rest of the day, for the rest of the week, for every second of every moment of every minute of every year for the rest of my life - make it magical. Make even my death and the here after and my next life magical too.
May I be safe, careful, thoughtful, clairvoyant with a sixth sense and ESP. Yes, I wish to be magical. I think it would really be cool to see a giant space craft hover over the crooks at the top and escort them out as they leave town.....they would be so awe struck (little shock and awe for them too!) that military would NOT be commanded to try to destroy them.. for they knew they would only look like fools... you see I think god will arrive in a space craft and burn their little greedy, obnoxious asses! Yeah, so the super sized big shots can all shit in their pants.. like it's judgment day! And wouldn't that be something! And may a big voice say "we've been watching you!" or "Put it back.. put it all back!" to the white collar greedy crooks who audaciously prance so arrogantly in public as if THEY were gods
Oh the hell with them - back to me. I thank the universe for all of my loving friends and lover. For my great running, looking car. Thanks for protecting it from harm and from "me". Thanks for protecting me and keeping me pain free, free, safe, happy, healthy, prosperous, kind, loving and getting it. Thanks for great sex! I mean thanks for great sex!
Thanks for my healthy thoughts and awareness that one has to looked out for one's self in the super-capitalist greedy corporate world so influencing all levels of government. You know I wouldn't care what they did as long as it wouldn't effect my livelihood...and I'm sure most people feel the same way. I mean you crooks do what you have to do but leave enough for us so we can have fun too! You greedy asses.. you people of little esteem. I mean I don't need all that money! I'm even willing to share.. so I should for sure get some money...because I have a generous heart!
But Ewen Cameron and Milton Friedman's "Shock and Awe" still holds true and just as in Chili in 1973, then Taiwan, then Russia, then Berlin, then they created havoc in Sri Lanke, then the Katrina levee fiasco...and on and on they go.. creating shock and awe to put super capitalism in place around the globe.. oh and Iraq of course! Never before have I seen it this bad....political super-capitalism... wanting to build bases all over Iraq and protect "their" oil! Yeah right!.. you I'm fearing people that "oil" mania will never go-away.. we will never see full force electric cars.. and smaller ones because the oil people.. as long as they are making money.. will not have it! It's the Bush dynasty that is addicted.. me us! It's not doing us any good! We are going broke while old white oil bucks are getting wealthier. Mark my words.. oil will never go away. Hey, plastic can be made from corn syrup.. we don't need oil.. these guys are nuts!
Think I'm kidding? Read "Shock Doctrine" by Naomi Klein; "Overthrow" by Stephen Kinzer and "Supercapitalism" by Robert B. Riech.
Oh, and while you are at it watch the DVD: "Who Killed the Electric Car?" and "Iraq for Sale: War for Profit". There all that should keep you busy for a while!
In the interim - don't forget to count your blessings and think positive and "plan you future" Yes, your thoughts are very powerful and "run" your life. It's true!
We will all prosper very, very soon! And Cheney and bunch won't be pulling any more stunts before they leave the White House...because they know it wouldn't do them any good. Besides haven't they ripped us off all enough.. we have nothing left.. they have it all in their greedy pockets...they and their CEO buddies..
Since when do big shot CEO's get more money than share holders.. since when do CEO's make 400 x's more than their employees... shouldn't there be a ceiling? A law against that? Hello? Mr. President.. isn't that your job - over-seeing just what goes on... and to regulate or at least conserve the cheating (of the tax payers) that goes on. What do we get out of it? I'm still waiting... hey where's my bail-out? The bail-out should consist of decent paying jobs.. and plenty of jobs.. and clean, decent, non-toxic, dependable products.. there should be regulation re-instated and laws put back into place to protect the consumer....Bush and Cheney torn them all down...
Will, once again... back to me. Thank you so much universe for my many blessings. I love to type.. can you imagine writing a book by hand.. not me. Hell, I wouldn't be able to read it for one thing..besides cramping hands and fingers...slowing the process.
Think I'll write a book--this evening.. I love to type.
Thank you universe, once again. Thanks you Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette.. you all take care of each other now. I know Emma is happy.. I miss her very much but I can feel her presence and her happiness. I know Ezekiel and Edy and Georgette are right here too....yippee!
You know what I think that even though Emma and the rest of you may have been reincarnated and come back to earth to do more good work... I think a part of your consciousness feels my prayers, my thankfulness, gratefulness and good wishes, and love for you.. thank you so much! Can't wait to meet you all one day.
In the interim, please keep me running, swimming, biking and dancing happy, with a brilliant memory and knowledge without limits. I can remember all names, years, dates, articles, thoughts, books, papers, and I can quote when, what and whoever I want. I am brilliant....and cute! I remain youthful in my appearance.. now and forever. I live a healthy life because I have the time to do the research and the energy and the knowledge to know "you can't trust them" those - drug companies are out to make a buck! It's that Milton Friedman Laissez Fa ire mentality!
Friday, November 28, 2008
the day is magical...after all
Man, was I every worried! I thought I blew it! But she's coming to see me tomorrow! I really miss her! I have a BIG MOUTH and said the wrong things and I was selfish.. and felt terrible afterwards - so I have learned my lesson!
I do accept new friends and family and I will keep my snipiness in check..that's easy..really I'm off that god awful energy stuff..no more..it didn't help matters.
I must learn to give and love ....remember what I put I there I get right back.. like a mirror.. and it's immediate..too.. I might add..like a knee jerk reflex kind of thing!
You would think that I am old enough to know better... but guess I'm not!
Well I am now! I had just forgotten I guess.. because it was all deva vue to me while it was happening.
I thank my special spirit guides: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette! Thanks for all of your help and guidance... and please don't ever leave my side and continue to look over and watch out for me. It seems I need all the help I can get! And please keep me patient, understanding, loving, affectionate, kind, warm and welcoming at all times besides safe, painfree, happy, cute, and monetarily sound......you know Christmas is coming up.. please help me with gift selections too. Again, I need all the help I can get! I so want to make the right choices for her and my friends..and gay family
I do accept new friends and family and I will keep my snipiness in check..that's easy..really I'm off that god awful energy stuff..no more..it didn't help matters.
I must learn to give and love ....remember what I put I there I get right back.. like a mirror.. and it's immediate..too.. I might add..like a knee jerk reflex kind of thing!
You would think that I am old enough to know better... but guess I'm not!
Well I am now! I had just forgotten I guess.. because it was all deva vue to me while it was happening.
I thank my special spirit guides: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette! Thanks for all of your help and guidance... and please don't ever leave my side and continue to look over and watch out for me. It seems I need all the help I can get! And please keep me patient, understanding, loving, affectionate, kind, warm and welcoming at all times besides safe, painfree, happy, cute, and monetarily sound......you know Christmas is coming up.. please help me with gift selections too. Again, I need all the help I can get! I so want to make the right choices for her and my friends..and gay family
Sunday, November 23, 2008
grateful
I am so grateful for my loves in my life, my health, my energy, my good cholesterol levels - a fun and exciting new diet that makes me feel - NEW! Rejuvenated!
I am reborn! I am so grateful for my special, master spirit guides: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, Georgette! The universe is grand, forgiving, protecting, wonderful! Magical! I am so grateful.
Thanks for protecting me at all times and thanks for protecting people and things and objects I love and need. Thanks for maintenance free - like new - things that I have!
Thanks for an ever empowering, bullist, rebounding market - on the rise as we speak! Thanks for positive feelings and brightened hopes - wishes come true!
Thanks for prosperity to all! Thanks for honesty, honor and intregity and greediness come to clarity and change to giving and generousity.
Thanks to the universe - ever powerful and clear and protective..past, present, future - at the same time. Brilliance beyong belief or grast!
Thanks for faith, hope, love, honor, sex, the wonderful of it! The closeness, the heart, the love, the warmth, the sharing, the missing - the wanting - the love! Thanks for a full heart - a heart at home - finally!
Please protect the ones I love and don't love! Please bestow wisdom and talent, energy and creativity on me and others. Thanks for my so many magical days. Thanks for Mary! So beautiful! Thanks for allowing me to do her justice! Framable justice!
Thanks for my no-pain, agile, energetic, magical, feet that fly running speed, a light heart, a happy heart, a positive mind, a happy body, a healthy mind, body and spirit! Wings that soar - hearts that fly - lips are magical
And please make the holiday magical and fun and light and friendly and not ignorant or arrogant! Oh how I wish everyone was gay!
Gay is my world! My family! My gay family! I am so at home - help me understand and "tolerate" straight people! It's very difficult at times - most times! So shallow - so opposite - so strange - so weird! So different! So righteous thinking and oh so wrong in their thinking!
Make tomorrow and the week magical and fulfilled with love, magic, running grace and speed and happiness and love and a bullist market and love in our hearts - and kindness and calmness and hope, jobs, love, honor, intregity and monetary gifts for all. May our bail out be large and useful!
I am reborn! I am so grateful for my special, master spirit guides: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, Georgette! The universe is grand, forgiving, protecting, wonderful! Magical! I am so grateful.
Thanks for protecting me at all times and thanks for protecting people and things and objects I love and need. Thanks for maintenance free - like new - things that I have!
Thanks for an ever empowering, bullist, rebounding market - on the rise as we speak! Thanks for positive feelings and brightened hopes - wishes come true!
Thanks for prosperity to all! Thanks for honesty, honor and intregity and greediness come to clarity and change to giving and generousity.
Thanks to the universe - ever powerful and clear and protective..past, present, future - at the same time. Brilliance beyong belief or grast!
Thanks for faith, hope, love, honor, sex, the wonderful of it! The closeness, the heart, the love, the warmth, the sharing, the missing - the wanting - the love! Thanks for a full heart - a heart at home - finally!
Please protect the ones I love and don't love! Please bestow wisdom and talent, energy and creativity on me and others. Thanks for my so many magical days. Thanks for Mary! So beautiful! Thanks for allowing me to do her justice! Framable justice!
Thanks for my no-pain, agile, energetic, magical, feet that fly running speed, a light heart, a happy heart, a positive mind, a happy body, a healthy mind, body and spirit! Wings that soar - hearts that fly - lips are magical
And please make the holiday magical and fun and light and friendly and not ignorant or arrogant! Oh how I wish everyone was gay!
Gay is my world! My family! My gay family! I am so at home - help me understand and "tolerate" straight people! It's very difficult at times - most times! So shallow - so opposite - so strange - so weird! So different! So righteous thinking and oh so wrong in their thinking!
Make tomorrow and the week magical and fulfilled with love, magic, running grace and speed and happiness and love and a bullist market and love in our hearts - and kindness and calmness and hope, jobs, love, honor, intregity and monetary gifts for all. May our bail out be large and useful!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
it's magical when it's 76 degrees on voting day November 4th 2008! Magical and the magnificent orange and brilliant golds of the leaves are beautiful! What a blessed day!
And get a load of this - Creepy Carl Roves, campaign adviser for Bush and McCain predicts today that Obama will win by a landslide! He admits defeat! Gee, do you think that we are actual having an HONEST election for a change!
So much for honest Republican Christianity! Republicans only panhandled to Christians with loose promises to get their votes! Personnally I think all sects should pay taxes. You know you too should have the opportunity to contribute to rich robbing CEO's bail outs! Please! It was a scheme I believe from the get-go! Just a last minute chance to put even more money in cheating rich men's pockets!
I suggest Obama clear lobbyist out of Wasington! They should not be permitted to buy the presidency and Congress! Obama told no money from them! Like every other "tax" payer they should petition the district representatives like every one else and notbuy their way'.
I also believe that all regulations that were nullified should be reinstated! I as t those protection for tax paying citizens to be pit back into place as FDR intended in 1932 during the depression! We are only damn lucky if we don't have a repeat of the 30's!
It's about time we have a government for the tax paying people by the people! And make those greedy ass rich bucks pay more taxes!
They should pay their fair share!
We the American public are being sick of being ripped off by government allowed and encouraged crooked behavior from drug companies buying the FDA, buying deregulations so can continue to built faulty, tail lights out, junk American cars! From health insurance companies that are allowed and encouraged by bully officials to refuse to cover doctor prescribed and in many cases life saving procedures! It often appeared to victims that insurance companies were axtually waiting foe the patient to die so they wouldn't have to cover cost! This is what I am talking about and the government knew it was going on. Government, especially Republicans are out for large corporations and give them tax cuts while we work our asses off in minimum wage jobs to bail their sorry asses out!
And get a load of this - Creepy Carl Roves, campaign adviser for Bush and McCain predicts today that Obama will win by a landslide! He admits defeat! Gee, do you think that we are actual having an HONEST election for a change!
So much for honest Republican Christianity! Republicans only panhandled to Christians with loose promises to get their votes! Personnally I think all sects should pay taxes. You know you too should have the opportunity to contribute to rich robbing CEO's bail outs! Please! It was a scheme I believe from the get-go! Just a last minute chance to put even more money in cheating rich men's pockets!
I suggest Obama clear lobbyist out of Wasington! They should not be permitted to buy the presidency and Congress! Obama told no money from them! Like every other "tax" payer they should petition the district representatives like every one else and notbuy their way'.
I also believe that all regulations that were nullified should be reinstated! I as t those protection for tax paying citizens to be pit back into place as FDR intended in 1932 during the depression! We are only damn lucky if we don't have a repeat of the 30's!
It's about time we have a government for the tax paying people by the people! And make those greedy ass rich bucks pay more taxes!
They should pay their fair share!
We the American public are being sick of being ripped off by government allowed and encouraged crooked behavior from drug companies buying the FDA, buying deregulations so can continue to built faulty, tail lights out, junk American cars! From health insurance companies that are allowed and encouraged by bully officials to refuse to cover doctor prescribed and in many cases life saving procedures! It often appeared to victims that insurance companies were axtually waiting foe the patient to die so they wouldn't have to cover cost! This is what I am talking about and the government knew it was going on. Government, especially Republicans are out for large corporations and give them tax cuts while we work our asses off in minimum wage jobs to bail their sorry asses out!
Monday, October 27, 2008
Grass glistening in the low autumn sun shine
I love Fall! I love the low angle of the sun glistening on lakes and grass blades. The bright colors of autumn against the bright blue of the clear autumn sky. The dark green, fresh with dew grass - so thick in the cool air.
But, it's windy today and I see the leaves trying desperately to hang on but losing the battle. As I glaze out my patio door from the second floor and see the warm shine of the sun I want to bundle up and get out there to run. So, why am I stalling?
Could it be I love to type? I have another reason. I must allow the ZipFizz I just drank to settle. It's chilly inside. I have no heat on. But why? It's 64 degrees in here. Yesterday the afternoon sun warmed my condo to a very comfortable 71 degrees. Yes, I quasted in the middle of the building at an angle from the wind. By late morning the sun shines across my floor with loving warmth.
Enough writing for now. It's time for yoga postures to warm up to running. I'll keep it short today. Maybe swim this afternoon. I have a half marathon to do this weekend. But, I've been doing about twice a week for the past three weeks about.
I'm so looking forward to the event. I'm not the fastest! The idea is to get out there and participate and over ride my fears and concerns. I get anxious the night before and find it hard to sleep. I wonder who can? I begin running the race in my head in preperation for the event so my heart rate increases to higher then when I actually run I think. The mind is a powerful thing! I try to turn the anxious thoughts off but can't. Actually, I believe one year that I did sleep well without aid. But, today merely thinking about the event, I can feel my heart begin to subtly begin to pound in my chest! Go figure! Whatever happened to mind over matter. I'm not afraid but excited. I can't wait to get out there and run with the crowd and feel their energy. It will be spiritual.
I ask the universe now as I type this to make the event spiritual and magical! I asked as much for this past weekend events and it was exactly the way I experienced it - magical and spiritual.
I ask for today, beginning this moment, to be very spiritual and magical and learning and bright and cheery and calm and peaceful and loving with grace and graditude for my health, beauty, riches, wisdom, wealth and knowledge. I pray for a clam night prior to the run with deep un-aided sleep and comfortable and warmth.
This weekend was magical because I requested it to be. The sun glistening on the grass and lake! The bicycle ride with my love feeling so comfortable and close! The spiritual drum blessing fire and chatting the evening before in the brisk darkness warms with seasoned cidar and hearts so pure and holy - holy cow! Sound spirit - the named drums. The silence of love without saying!
I thank the universe for my many blessings. I thank my special spiritual guides in the universe and on earth living right around the corner. I am grateful! I feel guarded, guided, gifted and dream granted. Days filled with freedom and love and talent. Such musical talent. Such warm rich friendships that do not go unnoticed!
I asked the universe to keep my loves and myself happy, healthy, properous, winning, pain-free, energy filled, memory enriched, super-intelligent, filled with common-sense, clear veined, happy, loving, generous, gracious, glorified, and filled with abundant words of wisdom and guidance and faith.
I thank my special spiritual guides Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette. My magical in touch spirits. I feel this wisdom, their warmth, their love, their guidance. They are here surrounding me. I wish to be clairvoyant, psychic, with extra-sensual perception. I wish to see the future by feeling the intuition and wisdom in "just knowing". A hunch perhaps? Just knowing some things naturally!
I wish to have an eagerness of learning and photographic memory and audio memory. Once heard remembered always to match my photographic memory of words and thoughts and lines in books. I am hear to learn and be magical and spiritual and all knowing.
It was once said that we alone do not know our mental capacity. And that we only use a small portion of our mind's strength. Is the mind in the brain? I personally believe our minds extend the boundaries of our brains. Our thoughts, our minds, and our sub-consciousness is with us from life time to life time. We are all magical and mystical and spiritual but many are too earthly, too busy being human, too notice our mental powers. We have only to wishfully tap into them to reveal and experience our mental powers. I am so blessed to realize our mental powers. I beleve exercise brings forth our mental powers and physical powers. So I must first do yoga postures to stretch before I run. It's cloudy now.. looking windy, cold and sad. I will turn this into magical and wonderful -warm and sunny in my heart. The clouds will pass and warm sun will appear before I step out my door in a few moments.
But, it's windy today and I see the leaves trying desperately to hang on but losing the battle. As I glaze out my patio door from the second floor and see the warm shine of the sun I want to bundle up and get out there to run. So, why am I stalling?
Could it be I love to type? I have another reason. I must allow the ZipFizz I just drank to settle. It's chilly inside. I have no heat on. But why? It's 64 degrees in here. Yesterday the afternoon sun warmed my condo to a very comfortable 71 degrees. Yes, I quasted in the middle of the building at an angle from the wind. By late morning the sun shines across my floor with loving warmth.
Enough writing for now. It's time for yoga postures to warm up to running. I'll keep it short today. Maybe swim this afternoon. I have a half marathon to do this weekend. But, I've been doing about twice a week for the past three weeks about.
I'm so looking forward to the event. I'm not the fastest! The idea is to get out there and participate and over ride my fears and concerns. I get anxious the night before and find it hard to sleep. I wonder who can? I begin running the race in my head in preperation for the event so my heart rate increases to higher then when I actually run I think. The mind is a powerful thing! I try to turn the anxious thoughts off but can't. Actually, I believe one year that I did sleep well without aid. But, today merely thinking about the event, I can feel my heart begin to subtly begin to pound in my chest! Go figure! Whatever happened to mind over matter. I'm not afraid but excited. I can't wait to get out there and run with the crowd and feel their energy. It will be spiritual.
I ask the universe now as I type this to make the event spiritual and magical! I asked as much for this past weekend events and it was exactly the way I experienced it - magical and spiritual.
I ask for today, beginning this moment, to be very spiritual and magical and learning and bright and cheery and calm and peaceful and loving with grace and graditude for my health, beauty, riches, wisdom, wealth and knowledge. I pray for a clam night prior to the run with deep un-aided sleep and comfortable and warmth.
This weekend was magical because I requested it to be. The sun glistening on the grass and lake! The bicycle ride with my love feeling so comfortable and close! The spiritual drum blessing fire and chatting the evening before in the brisk darkness warms with seasoned cidar and hearts so pure and holy - holy cow! Sound spirit - the named drums. The silence of love without saying!
I thank the universe for my many blessings. I thank my special spiritual guides in the universe and on earth living right around the corner. I am grateful! I feel guarded, guided, gifted and dream granted. Days filled with freedom and love and talent. Such musical talent. Such warm rich friendships that do not go unnoticed!
I asked the universe to keep my loves and myself happy, healthy, properous, winning, pain-free, energy filled, memory enriched, super-intelligent, filled with common-sense, clear veined, happy, loving, generous, gracious, glorified, and filled with abundant words of wisdom and guidance and faith.
I thank my special spiritual guides Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette. My magical in touch spirits. I feel this wisdom, their warmth, their love, their guidance. They are here surrounding me. I wish to be clairvoyant, psychic, with extra-sensual perception. I wish to see the future by feeling the intuition and wisdom in "just knowing". A hunch perhaps? Just knowing some things naturally!
I wish to have an eagerness of learning and photographic memory and audio memory. Once heard remembered always to match my photographic memory of words and thoughts and lines in books. I am hear to learn and be magical and spiritual and all knowing.
It was once said that we alone do not know our mental capacity. And that we only use a small portion of our mind's strength. Is the mind in the brain? I personally believe our minds extend the boundaries of our brains. Our thoughts, our minds, and our sub-consciousness is with us from life time to life time. We are all magical and mystical and spiritual but many are too earthly, too busy being human, too notice our mental powers. We have only to wishfully tap into them to reveal and experience our mental powers. I am so blessed to realize our mental powers. I beleve exercise brings forth our mental powers and physical powers. So I must first do yoga postures to stretch before I run. It's cloudy now.. looking windy, cold and sad. I will turn this into magical and wonderful -warm and sunny in my heart. The clouds will pass and warm sun will appear before I step out my door in a few moments.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
in my mind saw the good doctor
last night at the most warmest moment. Hm! Funny. Seems when I need her she is there. See how I can create those moments?
The mind is a wonderful thing! We have such magical powers.
Universe thank you for all of my blessings and please make tomorrow magical and give me happy feet as I run.
Tomorrow is magical! My footing is secure and light and quick. I run with a happy heart. The air is wonderful! I am full of energy and happiness and feel blessed nad loved.
Life is grand!
The mind is a wonderful thing! We have such magical powers.
Universe thank you for all of my blessings and please make tomorrow magical and give me happy feet as I run.
Tomorrow is magical! My footing is secure and light and quick. I run with a happy heart. The air is wonderful! I am full of energy and happiness and feel blessed nad loved.
Life is grand!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
feeling blessed and very spiritual right now!
I am so happy and so thankful for my good health and pain free, active days. I am so fortunate and I know it! So blessed!
I ran for two hours yesterday and ran for an hour today. According to my calculations I swam a half mile. I had fun! I weighted 125 after the two hour run. I hit the wall after 1 1/2 hours.. but kept going because I need to keep going in all conditions; under any conditions - no matter how I feel! I believe that is what training for an event is all about; extending my capabilities in case I have to go the extra mile. Or say I start out not feeling right; not feeling energetic. I need to know that my body, my muscles, are ready to put it a little harder. In fact I wish I could run again tomorrow.. but I know I really can't. Maybe Friday! And then one more time next week before the event.
I thank my special spirit guides who I know make my life so magical and wonderful! I thank the universe for my clear headed thinking and common sense and brilliants.
I thank Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette who I now all watch over me. I miss Ezekiel and one day I just may get out there to speak with him. I am so grateful.
I know the powers of our minds and hearts spoken via our brain and out our mouths. Think I'll read Jill Bolte Taylor's book entitled "Stroke of Sight". It's written very well and lots of spiritual insight! She says so many people are in hospitals and cannot communicate but "they are there" inside that body so talk to them and touch them. Do not speak to others in the room in the third person about the patient. Nurses watching took note.
Thanks again! I love my life. I am very grateful for my body and my active youthfulness...so blessed. Life's a dance.. so stay in step and listen to the music.
I played my sax today and I'm about to embark on buying bongos probably tomorrow? After I work out. I would love to swim again.. maybe I will! First! Or shop first? We'll see! Make tomorrow magical make my love's day magical..free her heart to dream and love and wander in wonderment and magical glory. She's very open minded and very easy to be with. I enjoy her company! She's slightly conservative. She has wonderful friends whom she speak with on a daily basis..and that's magical in itself.
I ran for two hours yesterday and ran for an hour today. According to my calculations I swam a half mile. I had fun! I weighted 125 after the two hour run. I hit the wall after 1 1/2 hours.. but kept going because I need to keep going in all conditions; under any conditions - no matter how I feel! I believe that is what training for an event is all about; extending my capabilities in case I have to go the extra mile. Or say I start out not feeling right; not feeling energetic. I need to know that my body, my muscles, are ready to put it a little harder. In fact I wish I could run again tomorrow.. but I know I really can't. Maybe Friday! And then one more time next week before the event.
I thank my special spirit guides who I know make my life so magical and wonderful! I thank the universe for my clear headed thinking and common sense and brilliants.
I thank Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette who I now all watch over me. I miss Ezekiel and one day I just may get out there to speak with him. I am so grateful.
I know the powers of our minds and hearts spoken via our brain and out our mouths. Think I'll read Jill Bolte Taylor's book entitled "Stroke of Sight". It's written very well and lots of spiritual insight! She says so many people are in hospitals and cannot communicate but "they are there" inside that body so talk to them and touch them. Do not speak to others in the room in the third person about the patient. Nurses watching took note.
Thanks again! I love my life. I am very grateful for my body and my active youthfulness...so blessed. Life's a dance.. so stay in step and listen to the music.
I played my sax today and I'm about to embark on buying bongos probably tomorrow? After I work out. I would love to swim again.. maybe I will! First! Or shop first? We'll see! Make tomorrow magical make my love's day magical..free her heart to dream and love and wander in wonderment and magical glory. She's very open minded and very easy to be with. I enjoy her company! She's slightly conservative. She has wonderful friends whom she speak with on a daily basis..and that's magical in itself.
Monday, October 20, 2008
I asked for the weekend to be magical and
it was. Perfect! Magical! And with Love! Spent with the people I love most! We went to see our next president speak!
I wish for a magical election. I declare ahead of time Obama the president! We did change alright! We need honest government for a change! Not Lobbyist ran underhanded cheating CEO practices that are brining down this economy!
Banks and all businesses need regulations and over-sight and we'll get that with Obama. He'll see to it that big shot crooked, greedy CEO's don't rob the share holders and workers of earnings. There is no reason for CEO big shots to get over 400 times more money out of the business then the shareholders and employees. Twenty-five time more fine - 400 times more NOT okay! They are crooked thieves and stupid Republicans in the White House open the door by de-regulating without over-sight! Well, "W" was just too stupid to know - but Cheney and old man Bush knew - way back to the Reagan days when daddy Bush was VP and ran the show.
So could Sarah Palin fill those daddy Bush and Cheney's shoes? Clueless! She's clueless too! Is this another goofy Carl Rove move! Probably! Now that man is weird! The only decent honest one there was roped in and that was Colin Powell. Hate to say it but sure wasn't impressed with the Condi character in "W".
And Josh Brolin's part as "W" wasn't very impressive to me. I think the guy who protraits "W" on Jay Leno and SNL does a way better job. Brolin forgot the goofy shoulder laugh! I know it's exaggerated!
Okay, I"m watching stupid Elisabeth on "The View" defending McCain and Palin and she's about as naive as the day is long! A bubble, blond, barbie dip-shit! She has been spoon fed since daddy took care of her I guess? Little Miss Christian! Please! Watching her stupidity up against Joy Behar's brilliance and savvy is no match and will win Obama votes - for sure!
And it's true we haven't heard anything about McCain's education or his health record! Thanks Joy! She's nothing but a spoiled admiral's son soldier boy who stupidity, hot-doged it and flew over enemy lines and got himself shot down! Mr. Big shot! And then she smart mouthed it when he could have gotten out after three years and they beat the shit out of him and kept him for two more - on his own addmitance! Oh, and he was a lady's man too! Mr. Hot Tempered war, OIL, monger! Just what we DON'T NEED is another OIL man in office!
I wish for a magical election. I declare ahead of time Obama the president! We did change alright! We need honest government for a change! Not Lobbyist ran underhanded cheating CEO practices that are brining down this economy!
Banks and all businesses need regulations and over-sight and we'll get that with Obama. He'll see to it that big shot crooked, greedy CEO's don't rob the share holders and workers of earnings. There is no reason for CEO big shots to get over 400 times more money out of the business then the shareholders and employees. Twenty-five time more fine - 400 times more NOT okay! They are crooked thieves and stupid Republicans in the White House open the door by de-regulating without over-sight! Well, "W" was just too stupid to know - but Cheney and old man Bush knew - way back to the Reagan days when daddy Bush was VP and ran the show.
So could Sarah Palin fill those daddy Bush and Cheney's shoes? Clueless! She's clueless too! Is this another goofy Carl Rove move! Probably! Now that man is weird! The only decent honest one there was roped in and that was Colin Powell. Hate to say it but sure wasn't impressed with the Condi character in "W".
And Josh Brolin's part as "W" wasn't very impressive to me. I think the guy who protraits "W" on Jay Leno and SNL does a way better job. Brolin forgot the goofy shoulder laugh! I know it's exaggerated!
Okay, I"m watching stupid Elisabeth on "The View" defending McCain and Palin and she's about as naive as the day is long! A bubble, blond, barbie dip-shit! She has been spoon fed since daddy took care of her I guess? Little Miss Christian! Please! Watching her stupidity up against Joy Behar's brilliance and savvy is no match and will win Obama votes - for sure!
And it's true we haven't heard anything about McCain's education or his health record! Thanks Joy! She's nothing but a spoiled admiral's son soldier boy who stupidity, hot-doged it and flew over enemy lines and got himself shot down! Mr. Big shot! And then she smart mouthed it when he could have gotten out after three years and they beat the shit out of him and kept him for two more - on his own addmitance! Oh, and he was a lady's man too! Mr. Hot Tempered war, OIL, monger! Just what we DON'T NEED is another OIL man in office!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Today a magical mystical day filled with bright sunshine, love and laughter! A love to behold and a promise of a bright blessed tomorrow!
filled again with friends and love and lowering fuel prices! Behold the universe! I'm thrilled!
I thank the universe for wonderful things of love and togetherness! Together closer we become learning one another's ways, wants and desires.
Thank you so much for my active, safe, healthy, rich and magical life! Make tomorrow magical too! I already know tomorrow will be magical and warm! Happy and loving like the past few days have me! I am so blessed and I know it!
Tomorrow I will be happy and energized with love and laugher and friends' pain will be lessened into non-existences! May they be healthy, happy, active and pain free! Me too!
It's time for bed but I am too excited to sleep I fear! Love my life! Thank you! Thanks for me my ex and I at close proximity!
Thank you for giving me every thing that I want and think I need! I love you guys: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette! Please take care of L and L! Thanks for branding my beautiful wishes!
filled again with friends and love and lowering fuel prices! Behold the universe! I'm thrilled!
I thank the universe for wonderful things of love and togetherness! Together closer we become learning one another's ways, wants and desires.
Thank you so much for my active, safe, healthy, rich and magical life! Make tomorrow magical too! I already know tomorrow will be magical and warm! Happy and loving like the past few days have me! I am so blessed and I know it!
Tomorrow I will be happy and energized with love and laugher and friends' pain will be lessened into non-existences! May they be healthy, happy, active and pain free! Me too!
It's time for bed but I am too excited to sleep I fear! Love my life! Thank you! Thanks for me my ex and I at close proximity!
Thank you for giving me every thing that I want and think I need! I love you guys: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette! Please take care of L and L! Thanks for branding my beautiful wishes!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Yin Yoga this evening..
I learned a little bit about Yin Yoga this evening...it's geared towards darma, seven chakra's, connective tissue and bone. We held poses for three minutes - that's the secret. And when finished feels like a massaged was received.
That was half the class, the second half was the more usual Hatha Yoga! A great evening with great instructors - I'm so fortunate!
I'm fortunate too, that the universe is with me and my positive thinking and imagining regarding the present day crisis we are experiencing besides the scary Republicans candidates - sorry! But come on? Where's the substance!
For a change I want this government to "take care of me". When is it OUR turn? I believe Obama will see that we are treated fairly. Hey, it's our time!
I want decent, affordable, national health care! It's not scary! Since the fifties' Reagan commericals in black and white with the spooky music this greedy, for big business only, poor excuse of a government has been little by little chipping away at our benefits and the security, over-sight laws and leaning towards de-regulations that only benefit big business, CEO's. And they stick it right into their pockets! It thievery at best! And once more, this pathetic government has allowed them to get away with it - even encourage it! I guess those fools are getting kick-backs.
I do want change! I want nationalist, socialist health care, what ever you want to call it - I want it. I want all Americans to be treated equal - for a change. Why are we so sexist and racist in this pathetic country! We should be ashamed! I mean look at Canada, England, France, Sweden, Denmark, Germany and more I"m sure!
I just have to throw this in here... I'm watching dancing with the stars and you sure can tell when the woman, taught the man. It must be very hard to teach someone to "lead". I'd think almost impossible. Trust me you can tell when a woman is leading from her side of the couple. I think the judges compensate for this, and it's acceptable in my opinion. It's just so much easier for a man, who will lead, to also be the instructor and teach her to "follow" and also, of course, learn the dance. But, let's be honest, either someone has rthym or they don't.
What door slammer just came home... some woman must have brought her boyfriend home..I don't normally hear heavy stepping and door slamming! Hope he's not moving in. At it's midnight on a weeknight! I need a drink! I'm getting sex, I just need the drink.. now.
No I don't I drank too much wine last weekend... wine is very mood altering to me. It depresses me. Well, I was dehydrated, no wonder. I had ran 2:20 that day for about 13 miles. Of course, I was dehydrated. Then I got home, showered and went out and drank two bottles of wine. Guess I better switch to beer!
Honesty, any alcohol is a depressant, a downer! It's a waste of the next day, is what it is! I wasted the whole next day! Never again! And it was a beautiful day too!
So earth to Z, I'm back again. Back to natural and healthy and spiritual. I was thinking about some friends and heard from them. I was thinking about Ezekiel and then that same friend asked about going to speak with him.. I was thinking I was due, but really didn't want to spend the money in these hard times, but, evidently, I guess I'm meant to speak with him and hear what he has to say. I'll take her interest as a sign that I need to go too. To be reassured I'm sure!!
Life is a wonderful, facinating journey! I'm very happy now! And I appreciate all of my many wonderful gifts, of love, wisdom, friends, intellect, activity, agility, safety for me, friends and my things that are and still maintenance free! Thanks for the love and safety and good health and freedom from pain.
That was half the class, the second half was the more usual Hatha Yoga! A great evening with great instructors - I'm so fortunate!
I'm fortunate too, that the universe is with me and my positive thinking and imagining regarding the present day crisis we are experiencing besides the scary Republicans candidates - sorry! But come on? Where's the substance!
For a change I want this government to "take care of me". When is it OUR turn? I believe Obama will see that we are treated fairly. Hey, it's our time!
I want decent, affordable, national health care! It's not scary! Since the fifties' Reagan commericals in black and white with the spooky music this greedy, for big business only, poor excuse of a government has been little by little chipping away at our benefits and the security, over-sight laws and leaning towards de-regulations that only benefit big business, CEO's. And they stick it right into their pockets! It thievery at best! And once more, this pathetic government has allowed them to get away with it - even encourage it! I guess those fools are getting kick-backs.
I do want change! I want nationalist, socialist health care, what ever you want to call it - I want it. I want all Americans to be treated equal - for a change. Why are we so sexist and racist in this pathetic country! We should be ashamed! I mean look at Canada, England, France, Sweden, Denmark, Germany and more I"m sure!
I just have to throw this in here... I'm watching dancing with the stars and you sure can tell when the woman, taught the man. It must be very hard to teach someone to "lead". I'd think almost impossible. Trust me you can tell when a woman is leading from her side of the couple. I think the judges compensate for this, and it's acceptable in my opinion. It's just so much easier for a man, who will lead, to also be the instructor and teach her to "follow" and also, of course, learn the dance. But, let's be honest, either someone has rthym or they don't.
What door slammer just came home... some woman must have brought her boyfriend home..I don't normally hear heavy stepping and door slamming! Hope he's not moving in. At it's midnight on a weeknight! I need a drink! I'm getting sex, I just need the drink.. now.
No I don't I drank too much wine last weekend... wine is very mood altering to me. It depresses me. Well, I was dehydrated, no wonder. I had ran 2:20 that day for about 13 miles. Of course, I was dehydrated. Then I got home, showered and went out and drank two bottles of wine. Guess I better switch to beer!
Honesty, any alcohol is a depressant, a downer! It's a waste of the next day, is what it is! I wasted the whole next day! Never again! And it was a beautiful day too!
So earth to Z, I'm back again. Back to natural and healthy and spiritual. I was thinking about some friends and heard from them. I was thinking about Ezekiel and then that same friend asked about going to speak with him.. I was thinking I was due, but really didn't want to spend the money in these hard times, but, evidently, I guess I'm meant to speak with him and hear what he has to say. I'll take her interest as a sign that I need to go too. To be reassured I'm sure!!
Life is a wonderful, facinating journey! I'm very happy now! And I appreciate all of my many wonderful gifts, of love, wisdom, friends, intellect, activity, agility, safety for me, friends and my things that are and still maintenance free! Thanks for the love and safety and good health and freedom from pain.
Monday, October 6, 2008
I could use a magical day!
Help me universe: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, Georgette... my extraterresterial friends! I could use some help me!
Let's give this economy a large boost!
Help feel the energy and the confidence I need to feel today! I am feeling it now!! Lots of energy and confidence and power. I am powerful! I am all powerful..physically, emotionally, mentally. Help me out will you!
Rick Davis, conflict of interest! Henry Paulson, conflict of interest! And Greenspan knew too that de-regulation would eventually bring this economy down and drag the world in with us! But, as always we are reactive and then struggle to stay afloat. Hey, that is what regulations are all about: reining in the loose nuts and greedy among the banking system. What did they think would happen? No one white or blue collar can be a crook without it catching up with you.
Have the real crooks all gone to Dubai to spend their money now? Like Ken Lay? Hide out, pretend your dead!
Cheney sure has been quiet. Oh, they are just waiting for time to run out now! They already lite the fuse and now are just watching and waiting for time to run out until the election. I firmly believe that Republicans will let Obama win this time.. so he can build the economy back up and then in eight years the Republicans will steal their way back in and rip us all off again for the next eight years... and the cycle pedals on....
Let's give this economy a large boost!
Help feel the energy and the confidence I need to feel today! I am feeling it now!! Lots of energy and confidence and power. I am powerful! I am all powerful..physically, emotionally, mentally. Help me out will you!
Rick Davis, conflict of interest! Henry Paulson, conflict of interest! And Greenspan knew too that de-regulation would eventually bring this economy down and drag the world in with us! But, as always we are reactive and then struggle to stay afloat. Hey, that is what regulations are all about: reining in the loose nuts and greedy among the banking system. What did they think would happen? No one white or blue collar can be a crook without it catching up with you.
Have the real crooks all gone to Dubai to spend their money now? Like Ken Lay? Hide out, pretend your dead!
Cheney sure has been quiet. Oh, they are just waiting for time to run out now! They already lite the fuse and now are just watching and waiting for time to run out until the election. I firmly believe that Republicans will let Obama win this time.. so he can build the economy back up and then in eight years the Republicans will steal their way back in and rip us all off again for the next eight years... and the cycle pedals on....
Saturday, October 4, 2008
well I am back home! I should have stayed home last night! Just the words wine tasting means trouble and I knew it! I should have
just told her to go on that I would see her some other time! As I was again I drank to much wine! You know I got on a roll!
Anyway I am paying for it today! Booze depresses me!
Sometimes busy body people bother me! So much I couldn't do it two days in a roll!
See it depressed me! Most days I enjoy life today I am very tired of it! Tired of feeling are ... difficult! I'm done. The show is over.
Sometimes I feel people suck!
I like alone time! For once some one doesn't do it better than me! No teaching or preaching! I'm done!
I'm ready to go now!!!!! To leave the stage! Nothing is new or exciting anymore
I have a two bottle wine hang over! Poison! Wine poisoning!
just told her to go on that I would see her some other time! As I was again I drank to much wine! You know I got on a roll!
Anyway I am paying for it today! Booze depresses me!
Sometimes busy body people bother me! So much I couldn't do it two days in a roll!
See it depressed me! Most days I enjoy life today I am very tired of it! Tired of feeling are ... difficult! I'm done. The show is over.
Sometimes I feel people suck!
I like alone time! For once some one doesn't do it better than me! No teaching or preaching! I'm done!
I'm ready to go now!!!!! To leave the stage! Nothing is new or exciting anymore
I have a two bottle wine hang over! Poison! Wine poisoning!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I love and need my freedom!
You know I love my relationship...but still need my freedom and I'm getting it. It's a balance. A careful balance. I am good alone. Actually, I'm probably better alone. But, I'm be okay in a relationship too. I'll stick to my boundaries.
I am grateful to the universe for all of my youthfulness, flexibility, pain free activities. I am grateful. I know that I will remain pain free and energized daily! And safe and healthy just like my friends will be too!
The univese well provide for us what we want if we want it. We only be grateful and to ask (but be very specfic) and then put it out there and let it go and keep your thoughts in the present moment and answers will come to you.
I need my alone time during the week some. I just need it. I ask the universe to help me keep my freedom while allowing someone to be in my life. I lose myself, but I think I am getting better. I just need the universe's help to keep my focused and to keep me myself. I love my hobbies and time alone - although not always. I'm tired of these headaches, headaches and acdity gut aches. I fear all tension - all trespasses and whatever.
I'm tired now. I need to sleep.. badly
I am grateful to the universe for all of my youthfulness, flexibility, pain free activities. I am grateful. I know that I will remain pain free and energized daily! And safe and healthy just like my friends will be too!
The univese well provide for us what we want if we want it. We only be grateful and to ask (but be very specfic) and then put it out there and let it go and keep your thoughts in the present moment and answers will come to you.
I need my alone time during the week some. I just need it. I ask the universe to help me keep my freedom while allowing someone to be in my life. I lose myself, but I think I am getting better. I just need the universe's help to keep my focused and to keep me myself. I love my hobbies and time alone - although not always. I'm tired of these headaches, headaches and acdity gut aches. I fear all tension - all trespasses and whatever.
I'm tired now. I need to sleep.. badly
Thursday, September 11, 2008
A Magical Tuck and Roll
Well, I have learned things along the way in my life when I was very young that have come in handy all through my 60 years. One of those things was becoming a hair dresser while still in high school. I can honestly say I have probably saved thousands of dollars coloring and cutting my own hair. And it's in good condition!
Another thing I learned at a very young age was judo. Well, just beginning judo but I remember a few moves to move someone off balance. However, the important thing is that during those lessons the instructor threw me down enough times that I learned how to fall so that I do not get hurt. Falling with tuck and roll comes so natural to me now. It's automatic to tuck and roll never trying to stop or brace myself against the fall and just allowing it to happen while relaxing into it. Of course I am very flexible because I do yoga for years now.
Well, sometimes when I run it's common to maybe get distracted then trip over uneven sidewalk or pavement..normally I'll get bruised and skinned up. But, today the most mystical, magical thing happened I fell totally down on the ground and was not hurt at all as far as the eye could see.
I tripped on uneven pavement on the street near my home just starting out my run. I felt myself go down and let it happen leading with my right shoulder. I tucked and rolled landing on my back quarter of my right shoulder. I felt my feet fly up behind me and my right hip side cheek land on the pavement soundly. It hurt slightly for a second. The underside of my right forearm landed on the pavement too. Maybe my left knee hit slightly. I know my upper right arm made flat contact with the pavement..not the elbow point the flat part of the upper arm. Tuck and roll is trying to land on fatty parts..not bones: knees or elbows.
I flew back up as quickly as I went down and picked up my cap that flew off and continued my run. The slight pain, more of an abrasive tingle on my right thigh and upper right arm faded fast as I ran and forgot about it.
I had quickly examined those area and the amazing thing was that I saw literally not abrasions or scratches or beginning of bruising and I was totally down on the ground. My shoulder protected and kept my head from hitting the pavement.. that the purpose of tuck and roll.
So my running guides were watching out for me today. It was most magical. I just checked again.. I feel the area on my lower right arm too near my wrist but I have no bruising and this happened this morning before nine and It's eight in the evening now.
Here's what I slightly feel without abrasions or bruising..my right side of my right leg calf, My right hip cheek, and that's about it.
I was running not walking so I was moving along about at least a ten minute pace while first starting out. I guess I was graceful and smooth I wish someone could have video recorded it.
So after I fall, I ran for forty-five minutes without problems and I did some speed training too.. pushing the envelope a bit.
Could it have had something to do with writing in my journal this morning thanking the universe for my safety pain free, illness free life and days. I thanked the universe for all that I have. I am youthful chronically 60 but physically 35 or 40. I do yoga smoothly and surely and attend classes every week and do poses every morning with push-ups and sit-up.
I came in 2nd place in my age group last Saturday in a United Way 5k run..with the lst place runner cruising behind me the hold time until the last quarter mile then passed me in a surge. I should have charged after her. I regret not pushing harder but I learned to train now for speed. Sometimes I believe that I hold myself back. It's why I worked harder on my run this morning to improve my pace.
I am entered to do a half marathon in the Fall so I need to get training for that event. I can't wait for it to get here. I truly enjoyed the 5k I just did. Of course winning a trophy helps spice up things.
Another thing I learned at a very young age was judo. Well, just beginning judo but I remember a few moves to move someone off balance. However, the important thing is that during those lessons the instructor threw me down enough times that I learned how to fall so that I do not get hurt. Falling with tuck and roll comes so natural to me now. It's automatic to tuck and roll never trying to stop or brace myself against the fall and just allowing it to happen while relaxing into it. Of course I am very flexible because I do yoga for years now.
Well, sometimes when I run it's common to maybe get distracted then trip over uneven sidewalk or pavement..normally I'll get bruised and skinned up. But, today the most mystical, magical thing happened I fell totally down on the ground and was not hurt at all as far as the eye could see.
I tripped on uneven pavement on the street near my home just starting out my run. I felt myself go down and let it happen leading with my right shoulder. I tucked and rolled landing on my back quarter of my right shoulder. I felt my feet fly up behind me and my right hip side cheek land on the pavement soundly. It hurt slightly for a second. The underside of my right forearm landed on the pavement too. Maybe my left knee hit slightly. I know my upper right arm made flat contact with the pavement..not the elbow point the flat part of the upper arm. Tuck and roll is trying to land on fatty parts..not bones: knees or elbows.
I flew back up as quickly as I went down and picked up my cap that flew off and continued my run. The slight pain, more of an abrasive tingle on my right thigh and upper right arm faded fast as I ran and forgot about it.
I had quickly examined those area and the amazing thing was that I saw literally not abrasions or scratches or beginning of bruising and I was totally down on the ground. My shoulder protected and kept my head from hitting the pavement.. that the purpose of tuck and roll.
So my running guides were watching out for me today. It was most magical. I just checked again.. I feel the area on my lower right arm too near my wrist but I have no bruising and this happened this morning before nine and It's eight in the evening now.
Here's what I slightly feel without abrasions or bruising..my right side of my right leg calf, My right hip cheek, and that's about it.
I was running not walking so I was moving along about at least a ten minute pace while first starting out. I guess I was graceful and smooth I wish someone could have video recorded it.
So after I fall, I ran for forty-five minutes without problems and I did some speed training too.. pushing the envelope a bit.
Could it have had something to do with writing in my journal this morning thanking the universe for my safety pain free, illness free life and days. I thanked the universe for all that I have. I am youthful chronically 60 but physically 35 or 40. I do yoga smoothly and surely and attend classes every week and do poses every morning with push-ups and sit-up.
I came in 2nd place in my age group last Saturday in a United Way 5k run..with the lst place runner cruising behind me the hold time until the last quarter mile then passed me in a surge. I should have charged after her. I regret not pushing harder but I learned to train now for speed. Sometimes I believe that I hold myself back. It's why I worked harder on my run this morning to improve my pace.
I am entered to do a half marathon in the Fall so I need to get training for that event. I can't wait for it to get here. I truly enjoyed the 5k I just did. Of course winning a trophy helps spice up things.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Well I wanted to become more physic and I believe that I have! Or I need to be more careful of what I think about. Example: one day I thought probably the nieghbor would get a little dog for me to hear yap and low and behold she did!
Sometimes right before my girlfriend say something I have just thought about that very thng! And I say: "I was just thinking about that very thing!"
So I asked for it and I am getting it! Which is okay. I want to be a well rounded much improved, more enlightened, spiritual, psychic person! Why not spiritual intellects claim we only used just a little bit of our brain power and we have so much more. We have barely tapped the surface. The idea now is to stay in the present and allow knowledge to flow forth.
I want to experience some physic ability. I already have most people figured out and most people with in a "me" material world. Lost people see only themselves and their wants and needs. Most people are rude and can't wait and push or act like they don't see you. Most people do not make themselves look very attractive. Most people don't think for themselves but are mere followers and lambs and puppets.
Most people who are trained and conditioned not to think for themselves are registered Republicans who are pro-life but war mongers. They are faithful NRA members and prefer to own guns for protection or whatever.
I believe that I am psychic and predict McCain's campaign mamagers will see that be wins one way or the other with whatever it takes. You knows big lobbyist ran corporations bolt those voting machine. Oh and I ask all they really have to do is fox the gallop poll to put McCain a head and there you are!
Sometimes right before my girlfriend say something I have just thought about that very thng! And I say: "I was just thinking about that very thing!"
So I asked for it and I am getting it! Which is okay. I want to be a well rounded much improved, more enlightened, spiritual, psychic person! Why not spiritual intellects claim we only used just a little bit of our brain power and we have so much more. We have barely tapped the surface. The idea now is to stay in the present and allow knowledge to flow forth.
I want to experience some physic ability. I already have most people figured out and most people with in a "me" material world. Lost people see only themselves and their wants and needs. Most people are rude and can't wait and push or act like they don't see you. Most people do not make themselves look very attractive. Most people don't think for themselves but are mere followers and lambs and puppets.
Most people who are trained and conditioned not to think for themselves are registered Republicans who are pro-life but war mongers. They are faithful NRA members and prefer to own guns for protection or whatever.
I believe that I am psychic and predict McCain's campaign mamagers will see that be wins one way or the other with whatever it takes. You knows big lobbyist ran corporations bolt those voting machine. Oh and I ask all they really have to do is fox the gallop poll to put McCain a head and there you are!
most grateful... as always
for my many blessings and her, she is wonderful! I am grateful for my agility, flexibility, humor, loving heart, great health, safety, great car, great condo and thanks for keeping them maintenace free.
I am grateful for my special spiritual guides. I have the best! Some of which are Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Gorgette.
I love meeting new people and learning about people. I love living in the city and I am most grateful for my mid-life crisis that got me here amongst all my friends.
I am grateful for packing up and leaving my family far away across the river in a another state. The goal is never to see or hear from them. Of course they make that easy. I am so grateful for my freedom of mind, guilt and heart!
I am finally living my childhood and I love it. I get to play, explore, invent, create. And all guilt free. I never had a fun, playing childhood - or one with neighborhood friends. So, it took me a while to get to this point. But, I'm loving it. I had a cold, weird, distance so-called family. My friends are my family... my only family. Truly it's not blood that makes up family.
I am so grateful for my freedom and chance to be me and explore my activeness and creativeness. I so thank the universe for watching over me, guiding me, loving me and taking me forward with dreams and wishes and wonderful loves in my life. Thank you.
Never to look back - only forward!
I am grateful for my special spiritual guides. I have the best! Some of which are Emma, Ezekiel, Edy, and Gorgette.
I love meeting new people and learning about people. I love living in the city and I am most grateful for my mid-life crisis that got me here amongst all my friends.
I am grateful for packing up and leaving my family far away across the river in a another state. The goal is never to see or hear from them. Of course they make that easy. I am so grateful for my freedom of mind, guilt and heart!
I am finally living my childhood and I love it. I get to play, explore, invent, create. And all guilt free. I never had a fun, playing childhood - or one with neighborhood friends. So, it took me a while to get to this point. But, I'm loving it. I had a cold, weird, distance so-called family. My friends are my family... my only family. Truly it's not blood that makes up family.
I am so grateful for my freedom and chance to be me and explore my activeness and creativeness. I so thank the universe for watching over me, guiding me, loving me and taking me forward with dreams and wishes and wonderful loves in my life. Thank you.
Never to look back - only forward!
Sunday, September 7, 2008
I believe that a spiritual saxophone player has invaded my spirit and is planning my days. He is possessing my mind and talents. For although I desire to sing and play guitar I feel pushed to play my sax more. I have this undeniable urge to take it with me no matter where I go. But I deny that urge and bury it.
Monday, September 1, 2008
well on this Labor Day I will type with two thumbs from my iPhone as it helps me and gusses what I try to type! Let me start off by saying I do not believe in reflection or looking back into the past! I believe the path is a foundation in which to build a brighter more enlighted future. Never look back only be grateful that I am not still stuck there wallowing in unhappiness. I love my ex and I love my lover and I love aloof my many friends most of which I got to see this weekend.
My friends are my spirit guides in desguise here to aid me on my journey and me on their's. What a blessed life. I can't wait until my next life either. I will be another beautiful feminine lesbian with long blond hair and very cute, beautil in fact. I will be extemely intelligent, musically talented with grace and wonderful rythrm. I will probably be a doctor with a Ph. I will be goreouslu happy and brillant never forgetting anything after I had heard or seen it just one time!
I will be very physical and active loving to run and bicycle. I will have wonderful common sense like j do now. And like I do now I will realize that the power lies within myself. I know that I create my own realities and I love it. This past weekend was magical, loving and wonderful. She and I are naturally happy and wonderfull together.
I am 30 both inside and out physically and spiritually. Life is grand! She is wonderful and doesn't hang around her family a lot and I love that about her. We had a wonderful time together and my ex and I are still connected by our hearts. It was wonderful to see her recently. I pray the universe protect her and keep her active, well and happy and loved - me too!
I wish to become quicker in my running pace. I have a half marathon coming up in the near future and life is grand. I pray if my ex gets a scooter that she is careful on it. Watching out for those medicated, crazed, dazed motorist!
I believe the universe, my spirit guides lead me on my journey to calmess filled with energy for physical activity and learning and most of all memory. I realiE too that I am very comfortable with my new love in my life! It's wonderful having someone so near and dear, available and easy to be with. I think she needs to worry less about taking care of others and more about taking car of hersef and yes, selfishly but isn't everyone - taking care of us - she and I.
We have only just begun and we need da h other. It seems so many others have such a head start on us. She will worry less about others and more about us . We need us. Does she worry out of guilt? Those that she worries about certainly to not worry about her! And there you are! People should learn to fend for themselves and not worry about others.
My friends are my spirit guides in desguise here to aid me on my journey and me on their's. What a blessed life. I can't wait until my next life either. I will be another beautiful feminine lesbian with long blond hair and very cute, beautil in fact. I will be extemely intelligent, musically talented with grace and wonderful rythrm. I will probably be a doctor with a Ph. I will be goreouslu happy and brillant never forgetting anything after I had heard or seen it just one time!
I will be very physical and active loving to run and bicycle. I will have wonderful common sense like j do now. And like I do now I will realize that the power lies within myself. I know that I create my own realities and I love it. This past weekend was magical, loving and wonderful. She and I are naturally happy and wonderfull together.
I am 30 both inside and out physically and spiritually. Life is grand! She is wonderful and doesn't hang around her family a lot and I love that about her. We had a wonderful time together and my ex and I are still connected by our hearts. It was wonderful to see her recently. I pray the universe protect her and keep her active, well and happy and loved - me too!
I wish to become quicker in my running pace. I have a half marathon coming up in the near future and life is grand. I pray if my ex gets a scooter that she is careful on it. Watching out for those medicated, crazed, dazed motorist!
I believe the universe, my spirit guides lead me on my journey to calmess filled with energy for physical activity and learning and most of all memory. I realiE too that I am very comfortable with my new love in my life! It's wonderful having someone so near and dear, available and easy to be with. I think she needs to worry less about taking care of others and more about taking car of hersef and yes, selfishly but isn't everyone - taking care of us - she and I.
We have only just begun and we need da h other. It seems so many others have such a head start on us. She will worry less about others and more about us . We need us. Does she worry out of guilt? Those that she worries about certainly to not worry about her! And there you are! People should learn to fend for themselves and not worry about others.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
beautiful mystical magical day riding bicycle in the sun with great friends. My girlfriend and I had a great time with her friends. L got a new bike and she did find with clipless pedels - see she didn't fall - either!
This evening a party on the deck and tomorrow afternoon a BBQ at a friends house nearby!
This evening a party on the deck and tomorrow afternoon a BBQ at a friends house nearby!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
She's wonderful
Beijing, China is quite the city. Oh, I'm watcing "China today" on U-verse! Get it - it's wonderful! So, yes, I'm watching Olympic news and besides. China is quite someting! They have the best technology and moves to the people. Urban Chinese like big TV's with at least 40 inch screens.
Back to me and her. She's wonderful! She's easy to be with and we enjoy each other's company. I miss her this evening. I spent little time with her last night - she had to work - and today - she had to work.
I wish the United States would get their act together. WE need to get rid of the old buggard oil men and get some clean "green" air young minds in there and make some great ecnonical and clean air chances.
Then there are women in the world - still taking the back seat and getting paid a third less than men.
I'm falling asleep. I need to get to bed. I miss her. We are so good together! Unbelievable! I treasure our time together! I am most grateful for her and all the loves in my life. They are all very important to me.
I treasure my loves confidence in my singing and guitar playing talents. They are the wind beneath my wings. I hope one day to play in a nearby coffee house. They said I would be fine. I would have a good time and play for me, but most importantly play to entertain myself. Sometimes I play for about two hours, or until my figers get soar, because I just love to sing and play. No, I have not tried writing songs because everytime I try to think of a melody I come up with a dupicate of one I have heard.
Thank you universe for all of my many blessings and I thank you for my friends too, in case they forget to thank you themselves.
Back to me and her. She's wonderful! She's easy to be with and we enjoy each other's company. I miss her this evening. I spent little time with her last night - she had to work - and today - she had to work.
I wish the United States would get their act together. WE need to get rid of the old buggard oil men and get some clean "green" air young minds in there and make some great ecnonical and clean air chances.
Then there are women in the world - still taking the back seat and getting paid a third less than men.
I'm falling asleep. I need to get to bed. I miss her. We are so good together! Unbelievable! I treasure our time together! I am most grateful for her and all the loves in my life. They are all very important to me.
I treasure my loves confidence in my singing and guitar playing talents. They are the wind beneath my wings. I hope one day to play in a nearby coffee house. They said I would be fine. I would have a good time and play for me, but most importantly play to entertain myself. Sometimes I play for about two hours, or until my figers get soar, because I just love to sing and play. No, I have not tried writing songs because everytime I try to think of a melody I come up with a dupicate of one I have heard.
Thank you universe for all of my many blessings and I thank you for my friends too, in case they forget to thank you themselves.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Wonderful
Life is grand and I am most grateful for my loves in my life and for my pain free, happy, rich, fruitful artistic days. I'm learning something new - to play the saxophone.
I already sing and play guitar and draw, swim, work out, play golf, bicycle and run and walk in between.
Bicycling is very risky but I love riding my bicycle. I only wish motorist would see bicycles out there on the streets.
I already sing and play guitar and draw, swim, work out, play golf, bicycle and run and walk in between.
Bicycling is very risky but I love riding my bicycle. I only wish motorist would see bicycles out there on the streets.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Hey Universe
I want tonight and the rest of the weekend to be magical again. I am so grateful for the wonderful time that I have been having with my friends and with my new girlfriend. She's very nice and easy to be with.
I hope my good fortune continues. I am very grateful for my good healthy, wealth, happiness, loves, and pain free, active wonderful days and events.
I've been walking, running, swimming, working out, attending yoga, drawing models at the artist guild, playing golf, singing and playing guitar for friends and bicycling. Soon I will be renting a saxophones to see how I like it. I can't wait! I'm so excited! My goal is to play "Satin Doll", Tonky Tonk, The Stroll, Moonglow and many other old standards. I love solo sax. My goal is to be very good by next Spring or sooner and sit and play in the park or just anywhere. I'm exciting.
So thanks to you my spirit guilds: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette. I hope you are all doing well and having lots of fun, laughs, and loves.
It's time for me get some sleep...but first I want to play guitar just a bit! Can't wait to get my sax! Wish me luck! Help me get good, fast! Wish me luck and aid and that extra boost when I need it. Help me being aware, active, and full of energy and fast responding and intelligent with impeccable memory.
I hope my good fortune continues. I am very grateful for my good healthy, wealth, happiness, loves, and pain free, active wonderful days and events.
I've been walking, running, swimming, working out, attending yoga, drawing models at the artist guild, playing golf, singing and playing guitar for friends and bicycling. Soon I will be renting a saxophones to see how I like it. I can't wait! I'm so excited! My goal is to play "Satin Doll", Tonky Tonk, The Stroll, Moonglow and many other old standards. I love solo sax. My goal is to be very good by next Spring or sooner and sit and play in the park or just anywhere. I'm exciting.
So thanks to you my spirit guilds: Emma, Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette. I hope you are all doing well and having lots of fun, laughs, and loves.
It's time for me get some sleep...but first I want to play guitar just a bit! Can't wait to get my sax! Wish me luck! Help me get good, fast! Wish me luck and aid and that extra boost when I need it. Help me being aware, active, and full of energy and fast responding and intelligent with impeccable memory.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Think I'm in Love
Life is so strange! Just when you get settled in a rut things change and it's because we request change! We want change. We want love and we get it - so better be able to handle it!
I've been with her since Thursday evening. I want to be with her tonight - but think I messed that up! Well, driving arrangements seem complicated and I was tired and still am and can't think straight. But, I'll miss her terribly tonight!
I was negative too many times so she finally agreed. It doesn't pay me to say "No" because I always end up hurting when I do! I should have said I would ride with her home with her friends. Was there room?
I am tired. Life changes make me tired and sometimes I have to take them at same intervals. Little pieces at a time. Carefully! I'm such a "big baby".
I wonder if they are reading my blog now too - since they googled me? No secrets! Nothing is sacred?
My eyes are tired and I'm heading to a concert and I'm sad and heavy hearted and not quite sure why!
I could fall asleep sitting her but much get ready in minutes - I'll be leaving in a half hour.. they have already left to go eat.
I do love her so I'll miss her this evening. It will be a long night!
I've been with her since Thursday evening. I want to be with her tonight - but think I messed that up! Well, driving arrangements seem complicated and I was tired and still am and can't think straight. But, I'll miss her terribly tonight!
I was negative too many times so she finally agreed. It doesn't pay me to say "No" because I always end up hurting when I do! I should have said I would ride with her home with her friends. Was there room?
I am tired. Life changes make me tired and sometimes I have to take them at same intervals. Little pieces at a time. Carefully! I'm such a "big baby".
I wonder if they are reading my blog now too - since they googled me? No secrets! Nothing is sacred?
My eyes are tired and I'm heading to a concert and I'm sad and heavy hearted and not quite sure why!
I could fall asleep sitting her but much get ready in minutes - I'll be leaving in a half hour.. they have already left to go eat.
I do love her so I'll miss her this evening. It will be a long night!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
I have you to thank..
Life is grand now. I'm finally on the right path. I feel it in my heart! I'm more relaxed this time around. She's available - seems like such a noviety! Finally, someone that's available!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Adjusting?
I'm not used to sleeping with her yet. Not use to hot flashes I don't have but feel the effects. I say get hormones! She's considering!
I wouldn't be without hormones. I'm healthy without meds; only hormones. I run, walk, swim, ride, and do yoga. I'm blessed; very blessed and I now it.
I am told I have lovely skin. I do! I take vitamins for healthy skin and hair. I take vitamines for my memory, nervous system; calcium for bones..and so much more.
I found "breath naturally" at wholefoods for my allergy plagued nose and I run so much better now.
And so, I'm adjusting. She's very easy to be with. She thinks I'm something and I know she does. I bicycled off to meet my running buds this morning, then ran with them and joined them afterewards for breakfast. I had a healthy smoothie. I eat better and less these days. I look absolutely "hot" for a sixty year old. I am so blessed! I have muscular biceps, quads, gut. I'm telling you I'm hot! I am very blessed and I thank the universe!
It's important to be grateful and I am. I love magical days. I want tomorrow to be magical. I love riding my bicycle and plan to get to bed early - about 9:00 PM. Oh sure, now I'm waking up! I'm watching Amanpour Reports on CNN about Budhism peace Buddha warriors in Tibet. Next is Larry King with a pice of the powers of our brains. I can't miss that. Although it will merely confirm probably what I already know. I want to hear the confirmation.
When will people come to their senses and learn that the power lies within each and everyone of us to manage and direct our lives. With positive and magical thoughts we can plan our days - so why don't we?
Our bodies should be our temples yet we do not honor them - why not? Are we not grateful? Do we take our blessings for granted - evidently we do.
So I for one am very grateful. I believe in spiritual power of subconsciousness. Our thoughts are very powerful and influencial.
I hope she and I do okay. Don't we all love the "winning over"? Now, it's time to pay dues. She's very loving, listens to suggestions, and has good common sense. She's a keeper. I'm fortunate. I need only remember I am more fortunate that many women evern younger than I am. So, I must use my time well to teach by example. I'm very fortunate people of all ages like me - and I liked them.
Tomorrow morning I'll get up early and ride my bicycle around the city ahead of traffic, then I'll probably go swimming and workout before noon. I got an electric guitar - it's fun. Now I want a saxophone. Don't ask me why? Okay, I wish to memorize and play old standards - like St. Louis Blues, Honky Tonk, and so much more.."Call me Irrisponsible"! So, I can't really afford one now, but I'm trying to find a reasonable saxaphone.. maybe a tenor, maybe alto; I'll see. I need to
go to a store and try them out. But, I can't find a local store that sells them - cheap enough! But, I've been thinking about playing the sax for a long time now.
Wish me luck! Thanks for keeping all my stuff working, looking good, and safe...that goes for me too! Thanks. Thanks Ezekiel, Edy and Gorgette too, for all you do.
I"m getting sleepy and wanting to sleep. I have ten minutes before Larry King. I can be in bed by 9:00 A.M.
I wouldn't be without hormones. I'm healthy without meds; only hormones. I run, walk, swim, ride, and do yoga. I'm blessed; very blessed and I now it.
I am told I have lovely skin. I do! I take vitamins for healthy skin and hair. I take vitamines for my memory, nervous system; calcium for bones..and so much more.
I found "breath naturally" at wholefoods for my allergy plagued nose and I run so much better now.
And so, I'm adjusting. She's very easy to be with. She thinks I'm something and I know she does. I bicycled off to meet my running buds this morning, then ran with them and joined them afterewards for breakfast. I had a healthy smoothie. I eat better and less these days. I look absolutely "hot" for a sixty year old. I am so blessed! I have muscular biceps, quads, gut. I'm telling you I'm hot! I am very blessed and I thank the universe!
It's important to be grateful and I am. I love magical days. I want tomorrow to be magical. I love riding my bicycle and plan to get to bed early - about 9:00 PM. Oh sure, now I'm waking up! I'm watching Amanpour Reports on CNN about Budhism peace Buddha warriors in Tibet. Next is Larry King with a pice of the powers of our brains. I can't miss that. Although it will merely confirm probably what I already know. I want to hear the confirmation.
When will people come to their senses and learn that the power lies within each and everyone of us to manage and direct our lives. With positive and magical thoughts we can plan our days - so why don't we?
Our bodies should be our temples yet we do not honor them - why not? Are we not grateful? Do we take our blessings for granted - evidently we do.
So I for one am very grateful. I believe in spiritual power of subconsciousness. Our thoughts are very powerful and influencial.
I hope she and I do okay. Don't we all love the "winning over"? Now, it's time to pay dues. She's very loving, listens to suggestions, and has good common sense. She's a keeper. I'm fortunate. I need only remember I am more fortunate that many women evern younger than I am. So, I must use my time well to teach by example. I'm very fortunate people of all ages like me - and I liked them.
Tomorrow morning I'll get up early and ride my bicycle around the city ahead of traffic, then I'll probably go swimming and workout before noon. I got an electric guitar - it's fun. Now I want a saxophone. Don't ask me why? Okay, I wish to memorize and play old standards - like St. Louis Blues, Honky Tonk, and so much more.."Call me Irrisponsible"! So, I can't really afford one now, but I'm trying to find a reasonable saxaphone.. maybe a tenor, maybe alto; I'll see. I need to
go to a store and try them out. But, I can't find a local store that sells them - cheap enough! But, I've been thinking about playing the sax for a long time now.
Wish me luck! Thanks for keeping all my stuff working, looking good, and safe...that goes for me too! Thanks. Thanks Ezekiel, Edy and Gorgette too, for all you do.
I"m getting sleepy and wanting to sleep. I have ten minutes before Larry King. I can be in bed by 9:00 A.M.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Life is but a dream..
Well, I do feel as if I'm dreaming! I am having the most wonderful time running, walking errands, playing golf, swimming, and riding bicycle with friends. And now I have been dating someone. I love her! She is truly magical! And she runs and swims too. She's active and eats healthy - me too!
So, what a magical time for me. I am so grateful! I thank the universe and I thank Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette for helping me from the other side. I know they help me! I am so grateful.
I'm sleepy and can't keep my eyes open so I guess I'll go to bed, but I'm wound up. Okay here I go - to sleep.
I ran for an hour and 20 minutes this morning. Then went to the artist guild to draw for three hours then went and played 9 holes of golf and walked as I pulled my golf clubs behind me. I'm pooped now!
Tomorrow I'll probably run in the morning, then swim and work out. My girlfriend is coming over in the evening to eat and watch a movie. Hey, right! No, that is what we plan on doing.
Good night! Thanks for everything and her and my friends and me; please keep them all healthy, weathly and wise and loved! Me too! And safe and all of our possessions safe too and service free and maintenance free.
So, what a magical time for me. I am so grateful! I thank the universe and I thank Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette for helping me from the other side. I know they help me! I am so grateful.
I'm sleepy and can't keep my eyes open so I guess I'll go to bed, but I'm wound up. Okay here I go - to sleep.
I ran for an hour and 20 minutes this morning. Then went to the artist guild to draw for three hours then went and played 9 holes of golf and walked as I pulled my golf clubs behind me. I'm pooped now!
Tomorrow I'll probably run in the morning, then swim and work out. My girlfriend is coming over in the evening to eat and watch a movie. Hey, right! No, that is what we plan on doing.
Good night! Thanks for everything and her and my friends and me; please keep them all healthy, weathly and wise and loved! Me too! And safe and all of our possessions safe too and service free and maintenance free.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
she is magical
She is truly magical! I am in love! She is very sweet in fact we didn't get much sleep last night. I can't wait to see her again! She is magical! I am truly blessed! I thank the universe! Please protect all my loved from harm and accident. Please keep us all well, loved and happy!
Please, while I am praying, know that I am most grateful!
Please, while I am praying, know that I am most grateful!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
connect the dots
L and I got together for a purpose I believe. She took me to speak with Ezekiel, the spirit, and through the years I have talked with him. After a fifteen year relationship I split L and I up. I was at a turning point in my life. Instead of being sick like so many do when they need a life change, I fell in love with a doctor. L's doctor. I thought nothing but of her for two years as I dated younger women. Back then, I had retired and hide it from my family for a year. They are life and blood suckers. I ditched them over three years ago and do not miss them. I repeat: I do not miss them one ioda.
I then moved to another state, around the corner from L. We are still the best of friends. We are family. We trust one another. I have had several relationships with younger women partly because I felt I missed out on my thirties. Back then I felt I had no lesbian option. I felt I was the only lesbian in the world. subsequently life was very painful then. L was my first at forty.
So after fifteen years and the split up, I sowed some wild oats. I believe my purpose was to hook up with a woman my age, named M. My age but unavailable because she was married. I believe my purpose was to get her to Ezekiel for Edy, her friend passed. M's purpose was to help reconnect E with G (both deceased). I have it on tape.
How it came about. Well, when I was with M she spoke of E and how she missed her and how I reminded her of E. I found myself saying "I think E watches over you." and then another time "I think E would like to speak to you". So I made the appointment with Ezekiel for her
Sounds farfetched? I can only imagine! I have M's meeting with Ezekiel on tape. I have the tape of the session. It happened. E and G were reconnected via Ezekiel with the help of M. E and G had been life partners for thirty years while they were alive. My mission was to get them all together so it could happen.
My reward? M's ex. I actually met her out with friends several months before M and I got together. But, we both, I felt, weren't ready. We are happy. She is very loving. M knows and says. "Funny how things work out."
Her ex and I are very happy
I then moved to another state, around the corner from L. We are still the best of friends. We are family. We trust one another. I have had several relationships with younger women partly because I felt I missed out on my thirties. Back then I felt I had no lesbian option. I felt I was the only lesbian in the world. subsequently life was very painful then. L was my first at forty.
So after fifteen years and the split up, I sowed some wild oats. I believe my purpose was to hook up with a woman my age, named M. My age but unavailable because she was married. I believe my purpose was to get her to Ezekiel for Edy, her friend passed. M's purpose was to help reconnect E with G (both deceased). I have it on tape.
How it came about. Well, when I was with M she spoke of E and how she missed her and how I reminded her of E. I found myself saying "I think E watches over you." and then another time "I think E would like to speak to you". So I made the appointment with Ezekiel for her
Sounds farfetched? I can only imagine! I have M's meeting with Ezekiel on tape. I have the tape of the session. It happened. E and G were reconnected via Ezekiel with the help of M. E and G had been life partners for thirty years while they were alive. My mission was to get them all together so it could happen.
My reward? M's ex. I actually met her out with friends several months before M and I got together. But, we both, I felt, weren't ready. We are happy. She is very loving. M knows and says. "Funny how things work out."
Her ex and I are very happy
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
How can anyone kill an animal?
I watched the 1968 film on U Tube about two guys who bought a tightly caged little lion cub because they felt sorry for him. Well, they could keep him for a year and run him in a friend's yard where they could wrestle and rump.
He got big so the two guys took him to S. Africa where he could live a normal life. They left him there. But in little more than a year they missed him and went back to S. Africa to visit him. Everyone told them he would not remember them, he's wild now. They went anyway.
Someone reported to them before hand that he was head of a pride now and had a wife. Well, love knows no end apparently. They guys stood nearby and soon he recognized them and slowly walked up to them. When he got closer he ran to them, one than the other, jumping up on hind legs and front legs on shoulders and giving them loving hugs. It was heart wrenching. Of course the recording of "I will always love you" by Whitney Houston didn't help stop tears either.
It was wonderful. After the hugs, the lion king introduced his wife to them. She was a tame as could be too. How they must communicate. Love knows no gender or species boundaries apparently. Love is trans generational, trans-life-times, and trans-species.
I believe that was spirits we come in earth not only in human form but in animal form from life time to life time. We come as we choose to come back for whatever purposes we come here.
Living beings should not kill other living beings.
Haven't we learned that yet? Will we ever? Why are some human beings so brutal and cruel. Why can't we all love one another.
What kind of brutal poor excuses of human beings are we to kill one another over greed - over oil!
He got big so the two guys took him to S. Africa where he could live a normal life. They left him there. But in little more than a year they missed him and went back to S. Africa to visit him. Everyone told them he would not remember them, he's wild now. They went anyway.
Someone reported to them before hand that he was head of a pride now and had a wife. Well, love knows no end apparently. They guys stood nearby and soon he recognized them and slowly walked up to them. When he got closer he ran to them, one than the other, jumping up on hind legs and front legs on shoulders and giving them loving hugs. It was heart wrenching. Of course the recording of "I will always love you" by Whitney Houston didn't help stop tears either.
It was wonderful. After the hugs, the lion king introduced his wife to them. She was a tame as could be too. How they must communicate. Love knows no gender or species boundaries apparently. Love is trans generational, trans-life-times, and trans-species.
I believe that was spirits we come in earth not only in human form but in animal form from life time to life time. We come as we choose to come back for whatever purposes we come here.
Living beings should not kill other living beings.
Haven't we learned that yet? Will we ever? Why are some human beings so brutal and cruel. Why can't we all love one another.
What kind of brutal poor excuses of human beings are we to kill one another over greed - over oil!
Six Legged Fawn
I came came across a U-Tube clip about a six legged fawn who limped himself into the yard of a veterinarian's' yard. He walked between the male vet in scrubs and the woman in all white. Then he made his choice finally passing up the man he sensed the maternal intense of the woman, I guess, and walked right up to her as she spoke sweetly to him. She picked him up and held him. Bingo! He knew then he would get help. He was a tame as could be. He wanted to be helped so he went to the vet's.
The poor little guy knew he needed help and apparently his little spirit guides headed in the right direction. He knew these people could help him.
As it is the doctor was consulting with nearby universities and it was believed that the two extra hind legs could be removed so the deer could grow up and live a normal life in the wild.
Thank the universe for people with warm hearts because we know now that we are all connected somehow. That little deer knew, sensed, where to go for the help he needed.
Spirituality doesn't get any clearer than that!
The little deer knew he could find help with those people so he went to the vet's on his own! How spiritual is that? He came to him and asked them for help and they are doing all they can to see that he gets help!
Very touching!
The poor little guy knew he needed help and apparently his little spirit guides headed in the right direction. He knew these people could help him.
As it is the doctor was consulting with nearby universities and it was believed that the two extra hind legs could be removed so the deer could grow up and live a normal life in the wild.
Thank the universe for people with warm hearts because we know now that we are all connected somehow. That little deer knew, sensed, where to go for the help he needed.
Spirituality doesn't get any clearer than that!
The little deer knew he could find help with those people so he went to the vet's on his own! How spiritual is that? He came to him and asked them for help and they are doing all they can to see that he gets help!
Very touching!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
She's not spiritual..but
she says she is not spiritual but later admitted praying and being grateful that her program ran.
Suddenly I believe I'm facinated how easy she is to be with. I'm amazed about how people point out my positive points. Okay, I have pretty skin. It makes me very appreciative for my many blessings and gifts.
Do we indeed plan our lives, our health, our bodies? Subconsciously we do, I believe. Our thoughts are very powerful and rather we realize it or now - directly effect our outlook and health. Life is what we expect it to be. So be careful.
If you expect to be sick at a certain age and time - well then.. there you are.
I wish to thank the universe for my wonderful sexual experience this evening. It was rather unexpected I must say. She's very loving! Very giving! I could see the possible past clash between personalities.
Thanks for my many blessings. It's time to go back to sleep. I want to ride my bicycle to the park and meet the other runners in the morning.. only a few hours away. Guess I better set my alarm for six-thirty. Leave at 7 there by 7:30.. run around the park 7:30 to 8:30. That'll work! I want to make the ride worth while. Hope I get that damn key out of the locker. It's always a pain. And don't forget my glasses and running shoes and change of clothing.
Good night Hey. Take care of the good doctor for me. I was just thinking about her. I'm sure we were lovers in a past life. What a beautiful, wonderful woman.
Thanks for all my blessings of good health, brillance, security, love, youthfulness, agelessness, safety and the safety and healthy maintenance of my home furances, appliances, car and myself.
Suddenly I believe I'm facinated how easy she is to be with. I'm amazed about how people point out my positive points. Okay, I have pretty skin. It makes me very appreciative for my many blessings and gifts.
Do we indeed plan our lives, our health, our bodies? Subconsciously we do, I believe. Our thoughts are very powerful and rather we realize it or now - directly effect our outlook and health. Life is what we expect it to be. So be careful.
If you expect to be sick at a certain age and time - well then.. there you are.
I wish to thank the universe for my wonderful sexual experience this evening. It was rather unexpected I must say. She's very loving! Very giving! I could see the possible past clash between personalities.
Thanks for my many blessings. It's time to go back to sleep. I want to ride my bicycle to the park and meet the other runners in the morning.. only a few hours away. Guess I better set my alarm for six-thirty. Leave at 7 there by 7:30.. run around the park 7:30 to 8:30. That'll work! I want to make the ride worth while. Hope I get that damn key out of the locker. It's always a pain. And don't forget my glasses and running shoes and change of clothing.
Good night Hey. Take care of the good doctor for me. I was just thinking about her. I'm sure we were lovers in a past life. What a beautiful, wonderful woman.
Thanks for all my blessings of good health, brillance, security, love, youthfulness, agelessness, safety and the safety and healthy maintenance of my home furances, appliances, car and myself.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Magical Kite Flying
Sunday. I woke up down and out my woes over my love..catching up with me. I found a convenient reason to call and visit my neighbor, my ex living with her girlfriend. They both are wonderful people and I am very close to them.
During the visit I brought up my love situation woes. She has a certain way of therapist talk that makes you cry. You know when keep drilling and your pain level rises to the top and you can no longer control your tears which take on a mind of their own. So I poured my guts. "Bingo!" She knew she nailed me.
I felt better and was heading out the door to leave and they followed with me hugs and kisses and good karma. Realizing the day was beautifully picture picture they grabbed their kites and invited me to go kite flying with them.
We walked a few blocks over to the new highway construction site. Surprising enough the workers were off. I see them working normally twenty-four hour days. I was very surprised to see vacant heavy pieces of equipment and vast emptiness amongst the curved out landscape not yet concreted. Looks like they have a long way to go. They have until the end of the year to complete this project then start on the other half towards downtown.
I had never in my life gotten a kite off the ground before yesterday. It was magical and the wind pulled the entire 5,000 feet of straight on my spool.
We were out there for hours with two in the air up high appearing as postage stamps for all to wonder. The tug. The wonderment. The perfect day! Magical!
Being with my friends - magical! I am so grateful for all of my many gifts and blessings. Life is truly magical.
I have love who could ask for anything more. Love, lots of friends, lots of activities to socialize.
I ask the universe to stay with me so no one gets hurt emotionally or otherwise. Maybe we all stay fit, healthy, happy, brilliant, flexible, active and in love! May all our plans come true. We are in control you know?
I feel I chose my body type. I feel my attitude and desires and wishes say alot about my good health and physical active adventures.
Thank you universe, master spirits and my Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette.
During the visit I brought up my love situation woes. She has a certain way of therapist talk that makes you cry. You know when keep drilling and your pain level rises to the top and you can no longer control your tears which take on a mind of their own. So I poured my guts. "Bingo!" She knew she nailed me.
I felt better and was heading out the door to leave and they followed with me hugs and kisses and good karma. Realizing the day was beautifully picture picture they grabbed their kites and invited me to go kite flying with them.
We walked a few blocks over to the new highway construction site. Surprising enough the workers were off. I see them working normally twenty-four hour days. I was very surprised to see vacant heavy pieces of equipment and vast emptiness amongst the curved out landscape not yet concreted. Looks like they have a long way to go. They have until the end of the year to complete this project then start on the other half towards downtown.
I had never in my life gotten a kite off the ground before yesterday. It was magical and the wind pulled the entire 5,000 feet of straight on my spool.
We were out there for hours with two in the air up high appearing as postage stamps for all to wonder. The tug. The wonderment. The perfect day! Magical!
Being with my friends - magical! I am so grateful for all of my many gifts and blessings. Life is truly magical.
I have love who could ask for anything more. Love, lots of friends, lots of activities to socialize.
I ask the universe to stay with me so no one gets hurt emotionally or otherwise. Maybe we all stay fit, healthy, happy, brilliant, flexible, active and in love! May all our plans come true. We are in control you know?
I feel I chose my body type. I feel my attitude and desires and wishes say alot about my good health and physical active adventures.
Thank you universe, master spirits and my Ezekiel, Edy and Georgette.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Truly Magical!
Well, where should I begin? I was lonely and wanting someone who is available for a relationship and suddenly here she is. And once more, I'm ready this time around.
Yes, I guess timing is everything. You see two years ago I winked at an ad and she winked back and we discovered we have mutual friends and more - a common lover.
Well, she and I only got together one time with two of her friends which I discovered I really clicked with. I think I spent more time talking to them and not her. She and I should have gotten together on our own maybe things would have happened long before now.
But, I can't complain. You see, I had a mission to complete - which took about a total of two years.
Then several months back even - maybe a year ago I got an email from her friends mentioning a campaign or a documentary or something and I still wasn't ready I was hung up or satisfied with my afternoon lover. But, that grew old when I began to care and needed more of her. She's married.
I had a very loney weekend then by chance got another email from these two women again about another political documentary. Which, this time, I went out of my way to see so they and I could get together to discuss it. I mentioned her, have they seen her later? Is she in a relationship? Would she like to be - my thoughts are.
They emailed she was single and would be happy to hear from me. So I emailed her and she wants to see me too. We are going to make diner plans for the weekend. I'm excited.
Now grant you I haven't seen her for about two years. And only on evening then. She was fine. I wasn't! My mind was somewhere else. I thought I was a hot dog I think because I was running with younger people. I was emotionally confused. I had a ache but didn't know how to fill it. Several months later I hooked up with the married lady for afternoon sex - that went on for a while.
Now the married ladies two ex's are getting together. This should be interesting. I'm not sure if she knows I went with the married one.
I guess I had to get something out of my system is why I did it. No, that's not it. I had to complete the mission I was on for Edy. Okay, here's the story again. Way back when right after M got married are there abouts she met a woman, who had a long term partner, G. Where before you know it, married M, was messing around with partnered E. For years. Even while M was dating a nurse too. Very complex and complicated life.
Then in 2002 E died she was in her 80's. Yes, about 30 years older than M. In the fall of 2003, G died. I had always, since 1992, when my ex took me to see Ezekiel, a channeled spirit, visited a woman who channeled Ezekiel's spirit. I split with my 15 year partner L in fall of 2004 after I fell in love with a doctor. Actually, she was a angel who saved my life. A very wonderful, caring, sweet, people who say "I can't do this" when I kissed her as she innocently hugged me. Immediately I'm sure my file got a "what out for this one" stamp on it. I will love the good doctor until the day I die and beyond. Sometimes I think what takes a moment can last many lifetimes. I believe the good doctor and I probably loved in another life time but not meant to be together in this lifetime.
Anyway, I ended my long term relationship, ditched my family and moved to another state and dated a 35 year old for the summer of 05. I guess I was still getting over 05 when I had just the one concert outing with Li and her two friends so I wasn't in a relationship mood. But that Fall I talked to then hooked up with M. I had known who M was for years and there was just something about her - so I guess this mission was destiny for me; all written neatly before hand.
So I saw M for almost two years. Then I got lonely. I thought of Li and her two friends ocassionaly. Oh, I didn't finished the E and G story. Well, I believe my mission was to get M to see Ezekiel so she could speak with E and help her reunite with G. And yes, it happened. I have the tape to prove it! I just have to buy a damn tape player that works. They just don't last long and the tape door doesn't fit tight anymore.
After I met M she spoke often of E, said I reminded her of her an artist. I saw her picture she was in the service before becoming an artist. I would have liked her I know. I said to M I bet she watches over you. And another time when she spoke of E, I found myself saying and meaning it. "I think she would like to speak to you". Now you know you put those words in my mouth, don't you? And M agreed so I made an appointment for M to speak with Ezekiel. I listened to the tape it was really cool. After Ezekiel lectured M about her situation upon which M insisted she would never change - he asked her if their was someone she wished to speak to and M replies yes, E. Oh, she waits patiently pacing back and forth behind you. So Ezekiel was the middle guy between E and M's converations. M asked E are you with G? Do you get to see G? And E say no and I miss her. Ezekiel asked M what's her last name and she told him. Then Ezekiel says. "My she comes fast"! So yes, I helped get E and G reunited in the afterlife. They welded together Ezekiel described it. I pictured a beautiful loving embrace. You see G who died first couldn't fight her cancer while a year longer E did and I think G couldn't understand - why such a fight? I'm sure those two are having the time of their lives. They can go anywhere. You know I felt they were with us with M and I had sex later that evening and that was just fine with me. Our sex was especially beautiful that evening. In fact I invted them. I hope that doesn't seem weird but maybe, I thought, they can't feel the wonderful sensations there, on the otherside without being human.
So there you are I think that is why my life took a curve in 2004. And I beieve now I am receving a thank you gift from E and G for helping them get together. I believe that this relationship with Li will be beautiful, happy, loving, sharing, even steven and sexual to the soul.
You see, being with M was a listen to be learned because I have learned to appreciate Li, I think. Her life is simple - that you universe. I love simple - more time for us and why not? Thanks again universe. If you need anymore favors just let me know - only keep me well, happy, in love, wise, wealthy in the process. Make them good for me and good for you and you got a deal.
I can't wait to enjoy Li. Thanks again! No, my attitude has changed - she will be perfect, fun, loving, witty and sweet and very sexual. Yippee!
Yes, I guess timing is everything. You see two years ago I winked at an ad and she winked back and we discovered we have mutual friends and more - a common lover.
Well, she and I only got together one time with two of her friends which I discovered I really clicked with. I think I spent more time talking to them and not her. She and I should have gotten together on our own maybe things would have happened long before now.
But, I can't complain. You see, I had a mission to complete - which took about a total of two years.
Then several months back even - maybe a year ago I got an email from her friends mentioning a campaign or a documentary or something and I still wasn't ready I was hung up or satisfied with my afternoon lover. But, that grew old when I began to care and needed more of her. She's married.
I had a very loney weekend then by chance got another email from these two women again about another political documentary. Which, this time, I went out of my way to see so they and I could get together to discuss it. I mentioned her, have they seen her later? Is she in a relationship? Would she like to be - my thoughts are.
They emailed she was single and would be happy to hear from me. So I emailed her and she wants to see me too. We are going to make diner plans for the weekend. I'm excited.
Now grant you I haven't seen her for about two years. And only on evening then. She was fine. I wasn't! My mind was somewhere else. I thought I was a hot dog I think because I was running with younger people. I was emotionally confused. I had a ache but didn't know how to fill it. Several months later I hooked up with the married lady for afternoon sex - that went on for a while.
Now the married ladies two ex's are getting together. This should be interesting. I'm not sure if she knows I went with the married one.
I guess I had to get something out of my system is why I did it. No, that's not it. I had to complete the mission I was on for Edy. Okay, here's the story again. Way back when right after M got married are there abouts she met a woman, who had a long term partner, G. Where before you know it, married M, was messing around with partnered E. For years. Even while M was dating a nurse too. Very complex and complicated life.
Then in 2002 E died she was in her 80's. Yes, about 30 years older than M. In the fall of 2003, G died. I had always, since 1992, when my ex took me to see Ezekiel, a channeled spirit, visited a woman who channeled Ezekiel's spirit. I split with my 15 year partner L in fall of 2004 after I fell in love with a doctor. Actually, she was a angel who saved my life. A very wonderful, caring, sweet, people who say "I can't do this" when I kissed her as she innocently hugged me. Immediately I'm sure my file got a "what out for this one" stamp on it. I will love the good doctor until the day I die and beyond. Sometimes I think what takes a moment can last many lifetimes. I believe the good doctor and I probably loved in another life time but not meant to be together in this lifetime.
Anyway, I ended my long term relationship, ditched my family and moved to another state and dated a 35 year old for the summer of 05. I guess I was still getting over 05 when I had just the one concert outing with Li and her two friends so I wasn't in a relationship mood. But that Fall I talked to then hooked up with M. I had known who M was for years and there was just something about her - so I guess this mission was destiny for me; all written neatly before hand.
So I saw M for almost two years. Then I got lonely. I thought of Li and her two friends ocassionaly. Oh, I didn't finished the E and G story. Well, I believe my mission was to get M to see Ezekiel so she could speak with E and help her reunite with G. And yes, it happened. I have the tape to prove it! I just have to buy a damn tape player that works. They just don't last long and the tape door doesn't fit tight anymore.
After I met M she spoke often of E, said I reminded her of her an artist. I saw her picture she was in the service before becoming an artist. I would have liked her I know. I said to M I bet she watches over you. And another time when she spoke of E, I found myself saying and meaning it. "I think she would like to speak to you". Now you know you put those words in my mouth, don't you? And M agreed so I made an appointment for M to speak with Ezekiel. I listened to the tape it was really cool. After Ezekiel lectured M about her situation upon which M insisted she would never change - he asked her if their was someone she wished to speak to and M replies yes, E. Oh, she waits patiently pacing back and forth behind you. So Ezekiel was the middle guy between E and M's converations. M asked E are you with G? Do you get to see G? And E say no and I miss her. Ezekiel asked M what's her last name and she told him. Then Ezekiel says. "My she comes fast"! So yes, I helped get E and G reunited in the afterlife. They welded together Ezekiel described it. I pictured a beautiful loving embrace. You see G who died first couldn't fight her cancer while a year longer E did and I think G couldn't understand - why such a fight? I'm sure those two are having the time of their lives. They can go anywhere. You know I felt they were with us with M and I had sex later that evening and that was just fine with me. Our sex was especially beautiful that evening. In fact I invted them. I hope that doesn't seem weird but maybe, I thought, they can't feel the wonderful sensations there, on the otherside without being human.
So there you are I think that is why my life took a curve in 2004. And I beieve now I am receving a thank you gift from E and G for helping them get together. I believe that this relationship with Li will be beautiful, happy, loving, sharing, even steven and sexual to the soul.
You see, being with M was a listen to be learned because I have learned to appreciate Li, I think. Her life is simple - that you universe. I love simple - more time for us and why not? Thanks again universe. If you need anymore favors just let me know - only keep me well, happy, in love, wise, wealthy in the process. Make them good for me and good for you and you got a deal.
I can't wait to enjoy Li. Thanks again! No, my attitude has changed - she will be perfect, fun, loving, witty and sweet and very sexual. Yippee!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Fun and Magical Day
What a lovely magical, beautiful day! Low 80's, low humidity and crystal clear blue skies over the Midwest. I ran and kept running just observing and trying new routes. Oh, I probably ran about eight miles It was over an hour and then I walked to do errands.
I got a smoothie and sketched old buildings near the park where I sat at a picnic table in the shade. A beautiful wonderful day in the sun and an evening at the ball park with my favorite friends.
Yes, my wonderful ex and her girlfriend volunteered in the bright sunshine several weeks ago running Segway rides at a town's picnic. They signed up, took on, trained and let people ride five minutes segway rides that costs $5.00 for five minutes. They listed 53 riders! A very busy day that left them tired and burnt. They thought they got the free tickets out of sympathy for their charitable war wounds. We enjoyed the game and had a wonderful time just hanging out. I was missing my ex. Every week or so I need to visit with her and touch base. We still have that wonderful foundation. It's great to have someone to connect with and share thoughts and experiences.
It's late and I just remembered that the lawn people will start early in the morning and probably wake me up. I can't keep my eyes open any longer anyway. It's time to sleep. Good night!
I got a smoothie and sketched old buildings near the park where I sat at a picnic table in the shade. A beautiful wonderful day in the sun and an evening at the ball park with my favorite friends.
Yes, my wonderful ex and her girlfriend volunteered in the bright sunshine several weeks ago running Segway rides at a town's picnic. They signed up, took on, trained and let people ride five minutes segway rides that costs $5.00 for five minutes. They listed 53 riders! A very busy day that left them tired and burnt. They thought they got the free tickets out of sympathy for their charitable war wounds. We enjoyed the game and had a wonderful time just hanging out. I was missing my ex. Every week or so I need to visit with her and touch base. We still have that wonderful foundation. It's great to have someone to connect with and share thoughts and experiences.
It's late and I just remembered that the lawn people will start early in the morning and probably wake me up. I can't keep my eyes open any longer anyway. It's time to sleep. Good night!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
My intuition
was trying to tell me me not to do the diabetes fundraiser 50 mile ride but I was undecided, bouncing back and force for the longest time. Finally, my sinuses were bothering me anyway.
And I know I can't keep up with these people. I decided not to even attend the event.
Well, besides the mileage the weather was iffy too. I was so glad I didn't go when I learn that those who this had to bear stormy weather of rain, hail and thirty miles of strong head winds and
get this, they finished still in three hours. No way. When I was thirty I did fifty in three
hours. And there were killer hills. No way. Of course I could have kick in the big guns with
Accel Gel. Whew!
If I use Accel Gel, once in a while the whey protein doesn't bother me. But let me tell you when it kicks in - it kicks in. It's not worth it though.
No. I'm becoming more conservative and I've learned to say "No".
So, I believe that my spirit guides were watching over me and trying like hell to tell me - don't do it!
You know I learned something else very spiritual about myself recently and it was clear and plain to me. My art instructor was showing me a technique of drawing where horizontal, vertical and an angle are drawn on the picture to be "copied" and the blank piece of paper to be copied to. Damn! I couldn't do it. My brain was blocked. It mechanical. Too confining.
Ezekiel, my spirit buddy, told me recently, that I have a good eye and that once I got going I would make all kinds of money. Cool! So, anyway, my instructor saw me struggle and seen me draw free hand the previous week. So, he gave me a picture and blank without the lines and I did just fine. In fact, I went to town with it. Free hand. And my picture was bigger than the original so it doesn't look like it traced. I think part of me and part of the subject should be transferred from original to the creative piece.
Anyway, it was amazing how blocked I was like four cars at a four way stop and no one could move. I'm free now. That event taught me something myself myself. He said to use my intuition and I liked that because that is the only way that I can do it anyway. I like him for an instructor.
He gave me two copies of Norman Rockwell women to draw and I liked that too. So when I got home that evening I went to town drawing. The first one although light I really liked. I'm not messing with it to make it darker because I want him to see the detail in it.
So, I have a left portrait that is giving me fits. I've already have done it twice now. So I think I'll go back to drawing the ones he gave me.
I want to read too this evening more of "Our Daily Meds" by Melody Petersen. I want to sing and play my guitar too. Last two weeks and weekends I was very busy so I am truly enjoying this solo time.
And I know I can't keep up with these people. I decided not to even attend the event.
Well, besides the mileage the weather was iffy too. I was so glad I didn't go when I learn that those who this had to bear stormy weather of rain, hail and thirty miles of strong head winds and
get this, they finished still in three hours. No way. When I was thirty I did fifty in three
hours. And there were killer hills. No way. Of course I could have kick in the big guns with
Accel Gel. Whew!
If I use Accel Gel, once in a while the whey protein doesn't bother me. But let me tell you when it kicks in - it kicks in. It's not worth it though.
No. I'm becoming more conservative and I've learned to say "No".
So, I believe that my spirit guides were watching over me and trying like hell to tell me - don't do it!
You know I learned something else very spiritual about myself recently and it was clear and plain to me. My art instructor was showing me a technique of drawing where horizontal, vertical and an angle are drawn on the picture to be "copied" and the blank piece of paper to be copied to. Damn! I couldn't do it. My brain was blocked. It mechanical. Too confining.
Ezekiel, my spirit buddy, told me recently, that I have a good eye and that once I got going I would make all kinds of money. Cool! So, anyway, my instructor saw me struggle and seen me draw free hand the previous week. So, he gave me a picture and blank without the lines and I did just fine. In fact, I went to town with it. Free hand. And my picture was bigger than the original so it doesn't look like it traced. I think part of me and part of the subject should be transferred from original to the creative piece.
Anyway, it was amazing how blocked I was like four cars at a four way stop and no one could move. I'm free now. That event taught me something myself myself. He said to use my intuition and I liked that because that is the only way that I can do it anyway. I like him for an instructor.
He gave me two copies of Norman Rockwell women to draw and I liked that too. So when I got home that evening I went to town drawing. The first one although light I really liked. I'm not messing with it to make it darker because I want him to see the detail in it.
So, I have a left portrait that is giving me fits. I've already have done it twice now. So I think I'll go back to drawing the ones he gave me.
I want to read too this evening more of "Our Daily Meds" by Melody Petersen. I want to sing and play my guitar too. Last two weeks and weekends I was very busy so I am truly enjoying this solo time.
Friday, June 13, 2008
It's the way that I'm feeling!
Spiritual! This morning I woke up and before I looked at the clock I said to myself "Oh, it's nine O'clock" When I looked at the clock - it was nine O'clock on the dot 9:00 ! I knew it was going to be a magical day!
Today is a day to reflect, meditate and spend something alone with myself and my spiritual talents. They are spiritual and might I add magical.
It is cloudy and a little stormy out, cooler but still muggy. But, I particularly like this weather. It stirs my creativity. Besides if it were beautiful out I would want to be out doors.
This weekend will be a solo weekend. I've been very busy the past few weekends so feel the need to indulge in myself. To speak my thoughts. To listen to my own conversation. You see in public I noticed that more of a listener and a follower. So, rightly so, there are times I need to exert myself even if done alone. I still get my way and my thoughts expressed.
I'm good at "solo"! Some of my most magical moments are experienced while flying solo! I love it! Hm! That just made me think of the good doctor. I miss her!
Maybe one day! Think I"ll draw a portrait of her. Good practice. From a picture. I really feel creative this evening! This afternoon I sang and played my guitar for awhile. I'm trying to sound professional. It's takes practice but more than that it takes confidence and "heart"! Mostly heart! Being raised Catholic I had to get over the guilt and inferior complex principles of the church ingrained in young girl's heads, imprints for a dreaded unhappy life. We are taught to serve others. To put others first. It's painful to think that is the only way you will ever be loved - conditionally. I never felt loved for being "just" me! So I draw. I express myself! I'm better than you now!
God, I was a mess as a young adult idealizing everyone thinking they better than me. I was empty puppet of a worthless shadow. At sixty, I have finally come to get past that. Frankly, I don't give a crap what anyone thinks. If that is what it takes then so-be-it. No, really, the people that I have admired turned out to be less than myself in many ways. And now I know it's because I was not encouraged, loved or nurtured as a child. I was taught not to expect anything. Which I guess was good in a way but I don't know love. It's hard for me to acknowledge love. It's like it is impossible for me to feel that someone loves me. Just how does that feel? I love myself.
Hanging with people many times gets me (us) into jams and I have to figure the way out. I'm good at this! I do really good flying solo at my own speed and at my own talents. I get tired of trying to please, or trying to keep up with the pace of others. Couples make decision and immediately I'm out numbers. Majority rules.
I have love in my heart. I know certain people do love me. I think about them at times when I'm flying solo and I depend on that knowledge to get me out there and bring me back home again. For sure, I trust in the universe and the spirit guides who loving mark my path and guide me. It's all in their hands. I fly by intuition now. In the now! I love and treasure the moment.
Break is over. Back to the drawing board. I'm taking private drawing lessons. I love it! Last night after three hours of lesson and three hours of group drawing with model, I came home and drew a portrait of a women in a picture my instructor gave me. I did good at drawing free hand. Picture by paper on large clip board angled at 45 degrees. I draw a larger image.
My instructor via demonstration showed me the cross lines and angle line method and drawing the blocks little lines at a time. A map! His turned out a perfect duplicate. I tried it. It was awful like four cars at a four way stop and no one can decide who goes first. It was awful. I found that my brain was crippled. So, he sees this and proceed to give me the picture to draw again only this times without the traffic lines. I did good! My was larger but good and looked like the subject. My instructor was impressed. I was free and un-crippled! Oh how I rejoiced by coming home and drawing away - like magic! I've done two portraits.. now for the third. So must go!
I want to read more of "Our Daily Meds" by Melody Petersen too this evening. It's a fabulous informative read that by the way only confirms my cautious inner warning intuition regarding "sales and profits at any cost" minded drug companies. You just wouldn't believe it; or, maybe you would. For example. Let's talk "overactive bladder". It's a "created" disease because of the drug Dretol. In 1992 or so, I was waiting for a doctor's appointment and saw the poster plastered big as day on the wall stated that if you pee more than eight times a day that you have overactive bladder. I was suspect immediately. Just how stupid do they think the American public is - especially the women? For I suspect more women are taking this drug than men. The poster didn't say anything about drinking a lot of coffee or tea or soda or water, only that if you pee more than eight times a day you need drugs for an "overactive bladder". How amazing is that?
Wait! There's more! There are side affects to the active bladder drug called Dretol which are hidden and unsuspecting to the patient. Memory lost, confusion are these side effects. So, patient tells the doctor and so the doctor then prescribed a anti alzheimer's drug. When the doctor only had to take the patient off of the over active bladder drug and the symptoms would have evidently gone away. See my point? A drug causes side effects and doctors prescribe more drugs to "cover" the side effects rather than "fix" or even try to discover the problem! This is not good people!
Once more we are getting drugs made in China and it's hard telling what you are getting. So beware. I am only on page sixty of a two hundred page book so have lots more to read and report back on.
Today is a day to reflect, meditate and spend something alone with myself and my spiritual talents. They are spiritual and might I add magical.
It is cloudy and a little stormy out, cooler but still muggy. But, I particularly like this weather. It stirs my creativity. Besides if it were beautiful out I would want to be out doors.
This weekend will be a solo weekend. I've been very busy the past few weekends so feel the need to indulge in myself. To speak my thoughts. To listen to my own conversation. You see in public I noticed that more of a listener and a follower. So, rightly so, there are times I need to exert myself even if done alone. I still get my way and my thoughts expressed.
I'm good at "solo"! Some of my most magical moments are experienced while flying solo! I love it! Hm! That just made me think of the good doctor. I miss her!
Maybe one day! Think I"ll draw a portrait of her. Good practice. From a picture. I really feel creative this evening! This afternoon I sang and played my guitar for awhile. I'm trying to sound professional. It's takes practice but more than that it takes confidence and "heart"! Mostly heart! Being raised Catholic I had to get over the guilt and inferior complex principles of the church ingrained in young girl's heads, imprints for a dreaded unhappy life. We are taught to serve others. To put others first. It's painful to think that is the only way you will ever be loved - conditionally. I never felt loved for being "just" me! So I draw. I express myself! I'm better than you now!
God, I was a mess as a young adult idealizing everyone thinking they better than me. I was empty puppet of a worthless shadow. At sixty, I have finally come to get past that. Frankly, I don't give a crap what anyone thinks. If that is what it takes then so-be-it. No, really, the people that I have admired turned out to be less than myself in many ways. And now I know it's because I was not encouraged, loved or nurtured as a child. I was taught not to expect anything. Which I guess was good in a way but I don't know love. It's hard for me to acknowledge love. It's like it is impossible for me to feel that someone loves me. Just how does that feel? I love myself.
Hanging with people many times gets me (us) into jams and I have to figure the way out. I'm good at this! I do really good flying solo at my own speed and at my own talents. I get tired of trying to please, or trying to keep up with the pace of others. Couples make decision and immediately I'm out numbers. Majority rules.
I have love in my heart. I know certain people do love me. I think about them at times when I'm flying solo and I depend on that knowledge to get me out there and bring me back home again. For sure, I trust in the universe and the spirit guides who loving mark my path and guide me. It's all in their hands. I fly by intuition now. In the now! I love and treasure the moment.
Break is over. Back to the drawing board. I'm taking private drawing lessons. I love it! Last night after three hours of lesson and three hours of group drawing with model, I came home and drew a portrait of a women in a picture my instructor gave me. I did good at drawing free hand. Picture by paper on large clip board angled at 45 degrees. I draw a larger image.
My instructor via demonstration showed me the cross lines and angle line method and drawing the blocks little lines at a time. A map! His turned out a perfect duplicate. I tried it. It was awful like four cars at a four way stop and no one can decide who goes first. It was awful. I found that my brain was crippled. So, he sees this and proceed to give me the picture to draw again only this times without the traffic lines. I did good! My was larger but good and looked like the subject. My instructor was impressed. I was free and un-crippled! Oh how I rejoiced by coming home and drawing away - like magic! I've done two portraits.. now for the third. So must go!
I want to read more of "Our Daily Meds" by Melody Petersen too this evening. It's a fabulous informative read that by the way only confirms my cautious inner warning intuition regarding "sales and profits at any cost" minded drug companies. You just wouldn't believe it; or, maybe you would. For example. Let's talk "overactive bladder". It's a "created" disease because of the drug Dretol. In 1992 or so, I was waiting for a doctor's appointment and saw the poster plastered big as day on the wall stated that if you pee more than eight times a day that you have overactive bladder. I was suspect immediately. Just how stupid do they think the American public is - especially the women? For I suspect more women are taking this drug than men. The poster didn't say anything about drinking a lot of coffee or tea or soda or water, only that if you pee more than eight times a day you need drugs for an "overactive bladder". How amazing is that?
Wait! There's more! There are side affects to the active bladder drug called Dretol which are hidden and unsuspecting to the patient. Memory lost, confusion are these side effects. So, patient tells the doctor and so the doctor then prescribed a anti alzheimer's drug. When the doctor only had to take the patient off of the over active bladder drug and the symptoms would have evidently gone away. See my point? A drug causes side effects and doctors prescribe more drugs to "cover" the side effects rather than "fix" or even try to discover the problem! This is not good people!
Once more we are getting drugs made in China and it's hard telling what you are getting. So beware. I am only on page sixty of a two hundred page book so have lots more to read and report back on.
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